<p>Also, you say that your are a “sheltered, homeschooled girl”, and that you have sang in your church choir forever. Are you from a deeply religious family? Since you mention that playing organ helps you stave off depression, I assume there is a spiritual connection when you play? My son once mentioned the sense of inner peace he has when he plays organ, and that when he is in the church organ loft playing hymns he feels he is “making God happy”…if you have similar feelings perhaps you could have a heart to heart talk with you parents and they may see things differently. I don’t know your religion, but perhaps there is an affiliated college with an organ major?</p>