<p>You do not need to think of college as vocational preparation.You can study what you love. Music is sometimes a performance major (BM) but as I hinted at before, it can also be a rigorous academic major (BA) that is respected by employers and grad/professional schools. </p>
<p>If you want to write about science, you can also write about music on your application. Colleges like applicants with “passions” and all the better if you indicate interests in both science and music, or anything else for that matter.</p>
<p>Since music helps your depression, I would think you might be interested in music therapy or expressive therapies as a career, if you do want to think about career. Check out Lesley College in Cambridge MA for expressive arts therapy as a major (with a focus on music if you like). Longy School of Music is right across the street and you could study organ with someone there.</p>
<p>People on the music forum will have more ideas.</p>