<p>Hi, I would appreciate a little advice or input.</p>
<p>I am a third year Music Education major in a 5-year program, dual-majoring in anthropology. I used to be a BA-mus with the anth as a double degree, but I was convinced by my private teacher to switch into Music Ed for multiple reasons. </p>
<p>The thing is, when I look at upcoming courses I need to complete for the next semester -- and everything thereafter -- my heart falls at anything marked "EDU". I love my music studies, but this semester the education courses are beginning to become a huge pain. I do well in them, but it is difficult to, say, find the motivation to write multiple 10-page essays on civic engagement or education law when I would rather devote my time to practicing my instrument, honing my performance skills, and pouring my academic energies into music history or anthro stuff. I am not 100% set on teaching music in a public school, even though I dearly love teaching in any capacity. I actually want to continue on in grad school in musicology, and performance as well, if I can swing it.</p>
<p>I was not good enough to be in performance upon starting college, but auditioned and was originally allowed in to the Music Ed program here, figuring at that time that music was music, and I could always take advantage of a great teacher and work on my playing skills while also learning many other aspects of music and pedagogy. Yet, I switched out of the program relatively early on to a BA upon pressure from my family, who seem to believe an education degree a futile enterprise nowadays (though they would support me in performance...yeah, I know!)</p>
<p>Unbeknownst to them, I changed majors once again back to Music Ed last semester upon being taken aside by my teacher and counseled to do the more professional-type degree. Now I am once again considering heading back to the BA, as that seems the most logical...music-related, but without the intense rigour of the BME, for which I seem to have little passion now...but this constant back-and-forth comes off as rather silly to me. If I switch back, I will surely burn any remnants of the bridge I had with the head of the Music Ed. program, who had to be thoroughly convinced to let me back in after switching out the first time. I also do not know if transcripts reflect changes of Major, and if they do, I certainly do not want to risk having a mile-long history of indecision. </p>
<p>Yet, the thought of going through all the remaining practicums, education courses, and time-devouring student teaching fills me with depression. What should I do? Realizing that no degree will have classes I am 100% satisfied with -- just as no career will be 100% awesome all the time -- should I just accept I have run out of options and stick with it? Am I merely inflicting late semester melodrama upon myself?</p>