<p>I've honestly been spending an unhealthy amount of time ruminating on what exactly made me decide to go to Georgia Southern when I got accepted to Emory and had an extremely good shot at a full ride to Mercer University. I also wonder why those three schools were the only ones I thought to apply to. I've been wasting a great deal of time wondering how things went so wrong during my senior year, and now that transfer application deadlines are looming within the next few months, I'm looking to remedy my stupid senior year mistakes.</p>
<p>But first things first: I don't hate Georgia Southern. I'm not even sure that I dislike it. I've been doing pretty good in the honors program, and I feel like I've sort of established a presence there, if that makes sense. I just can't stand waking up with this feeling of regret every morning, this feeling that I wasted four years of working my butt off in high school so that I could go to a school where everything is named after some football coach from the seventies and all the bars are mixed in with the dorms. It just isn't what I expected college to be; actually, it's exactly what I expected life at UGA to be like, which is why, after a lot of ambivalent trips to their admission webpage, I decided not to apply. </p>
<p>At the moment, I'm working on my transfer applications for Emory, possibly Vanderbilt (because if I had the stats for Emory, I may as well see where else they can get me), possibly UNC Asheville (because I'm a liberal arts student and something about that school just really appeals to me), and maybe (but probably not!!!) some public schools in Tennessee since we're moving to Chattanooga in February. I'm wondering if I should add UGA to the list, though. I kept telling my parents, halfway jokingly, that we should move to North Carolina or Virginia instead because they have excellent public universities, but I guess I stupidly overlooked the fact that I live in a state with a "public ivy." I honestly thought that UGA was just where all the snobs from my old high school went to party (I honestly don't know a single nice person who goes there, but that could just be because nice people were a rare breed in that high school). I didn't realize that it has a lot of the things that I was looking for in a school, like a good creative writing program (one of the things that turned me off to UGA was that their majors page didn't list creative writing anywhere; as it turned out, though, it's part of their English major), high rankings on a national level, and beautiful, old architecture. That last one may be shallow, but I am a sucker for historic landmarks and pretty much anything with some bricks and pillars. I guess I just wanted that stereotypical collegiate atmosphere...but the football thing still worries me. One thing I dislike about GSU is how football seems to be put above everything else; I can only imagine that it'd be ten times worse at UGA, since the dawgs are actually a nationally renowned team (don't expect me to know the names of the conferences or anything!). I also really don't understand how UGA is considered a "public ivy;" to be frank with you, I know a handful of dumb people that go there. That probably sounds awful, but I can name several sub-par students who got accepted there. </p>
<p>I'm just afraid that UGA would be nothing more than a larger scale, marginally better version of GSU, and if that's the case, then I don't want to go there. I'm also kind of afraid of becoming one of those people who transfer from GSU to UGA, which I realize is extremely shallow, but people on campus seem to really resent that, for whatever reason. I don't know...I just get this bad vibe about UGA. I just feel like it's so...stereotypical to go there if you live in Georgia, or something. That's probably a ridiculous attitude to have. They also have horrible dorms, and Georgia Southern's dorms have spoiled me (although I shouldn't even worry about that since my parents won't let me live in a dorm there next year, anyways). I just...I really don't know. I've been going back and forth about this for quite some time, and I'm really tired of it. I'm honestly the most ambivalent person on the planet. I'm sort of wondering if I should transfer at all, because maybe subconsciously the only reason I want to is because I'm ashamed to tell people that I go to GSU, because people almost always ask me why I didn't go somewhere better. But at the same time, I feel like my peers and I are just...different. God, I hope I don't come off like I'm trying to be precious, or something. Because I'm not. </p>
<p>I don't know. I think I mostly just regret that I'm not a rich kid who spent their junior year summer break being chauffeured around the country to various college campuses by their rich parents. I feel like I was cornered into GSU, and I feel like I've been slighted. I don't know. This post got really long...so yeah, any advice would be extremely appreciated.</p>