<p>I am currently having trouble with the Society of Professional Journalists chapter at UMD and some of its members. As you people know, I am still a newcomer to UMD and everything. I joined SPJ only one month ago, and the reason that I join was to have professional development in the field and profession in order to be a good journalist. I wanted to get to know and have friends within the profession. I noticed in a recent event a few weeks ago, I felt left out by the group members in a sense that people there did not really wanted to get to know me or ask me anything. Everyone seems really know each other. I felt out because I am a newcomer to the J-School and UMD. Majority of the members are in the J-School taking classes there and having good opportunities to flourish and prosper. I tried to explain this to some of the members, but I do not think they understand, or something must be wrong with me.</p>
<p>Then, I had a problem with B (who is the one of the co-presidents at SPJ). who is one of the members in the organization. I had a previous mishap with him in the beginning of the semester before I joined the organization. I apologized for my wrongdoing in person and by email and B. said everything is in the past. I assumed there was a new clean state. However, once my interaction with B. occurred, I noticed things were different. I noticed that he would say "hello" in person and sometimes for events "hello, did you enjoy the event ?" He wouldn't say anything else or ask me any questions or anything what so ever. However on social media, I would ask questions (nothing personal) and comment on things mentioned in order to get to know him better. He would passed over my questions and comments and really would not answered them. I first thought he may be too busy, but I felt he did not noticed them. Now, there some he answered in the beginning, but the majority of them were not. I was wondering if something was wrong with me or he did not like talking to me or something. This made mefeel sad because I am trying to get to know the person. I tried twice to let him know about this, and he keeps saying "face-to-face" interaction, and I tried that with the organization and its members, and it is not really working out. I feel like B. is really not fully understanding what I am saying here.</p>
<p>Then after I felt depressed and all, he severed all methods of communication with me without any notice or explanation. I do not know what I did wrong or what I do to him or to deserve this. Not sure if he thinks of me as a manipulator, an insane person, an idiot, being desperate, or something. I did not say anything coarse, inappropriate, offensive, or mean to him.</p>
<p>I am feeling that everything is probably my fault. I am not saying that I am a victim nor playing the victim card.</p>
<p>The members of SPJ keep saying "we are ALL friends, and no one is left out." What is that statement supposed to mean? Other people keep telling me that SPJ is clicky and other things. Then, there is more things being told about B., such as he is not nice and that he is a jerk, and other things told by other people. I do not know if all of this are true or this is just talk or hearsay.</p>
<p>I do not know what I want to with SPJ and B. B. could have instructed the other members not to communicate with me or something.</p>
<p>I am thinking of going to tell the adviser of this organization what is going on here. I wish that I went to her from the very beginning. Other people have told me to contact the adviser since the beginning of the semester. I do not know if I should leave SPJ or something. What should I do about the organization and B.?</p>