<p>I am currently a 5th year student in college and am scheduled to graduate this coming May, but I don't know if I am going to be able to. I need all B's to graduate and I don't know if I am going to be able to pull those grades. I have been depressed over this for the past 2 weeks and it is starting to eat at me seriously as my parents talk to me daily about finding a job. It also doesn't help that they have told everyone they know that I am graduating and they have friends who they think can get me a job. I don't know what to do as I don't know how to tell my parents that I may not graduate. My loans are in my fathers name by the way but I don't have any illusions of not being able to pay them back as I do plan on working my current job as long as I need to.
I also have been dealing with depression due to the fact that I may have lost my second job as the owner of the restaurant I work with is a jerk and is verbally abusive, I won't know for a few days as I never said I was fired, but I was taken off the schedule last week when I usually work.
All of these things have been pushing me into a depression so sever that I was contemplating suicide a couple of times the past few days, the only thing that keeps me from doing it is that I love my family so much and my friends also. I don't know what to do folks, how do I handle this.
Also, I am currently watching a house for a friend and am away from campus and commuting daily, and I am sure that is contributing as I am almost always alone right now, but my friend will return in 2 weeks.
Can anyone give me any advice? I understand that I brought this upon myself but I don't know how to handle it.</p>
<p>Contemplating suicide because you won’t graduate on time? Ridiculous, you’d just graduate a semester later. Why does it matter that they’re telling everyone you’re going to graduate? Pushing your graduation date back is reasonable if you can’t handle your current course load. </p>
<p>Be honest about it with your parents, get a tutor if you’re not doing well, and if being fired from your job is a big deal you’ll need to discuss finances with your parents and you really need to straighten stuff out with your boss - find out if you have a job or not, you don’t got time to deal with this bs. You gotta focus on school. </p>
<p>What I advise is seeing a counselor of some sort. They should have something for that on campus. A lot of people get severely depressed. Keep your head up and start visiting your teacher’s office hours. Don’t make excuses. </p>
<p>Call friends while you’re house sitting. Idk, bring a gaming system or something. Your friend will return in 2 weeks. If you feel comfortable with a friend or two, tell them about your depression. </p>
<p>Your situation is not worth killing yourself over independent of your family’s or friend’s wants.</p>
<p>get a tutor</p>
<p>Hey - i know depression sucks. 1) allow yourself to cry and scream at the world
2) write down all your worries. Allll of them. Even “What if i end up accidentally setting the house on fire.” if thats a worry. Then, see how many are realistic. Then, see how many are easily solvable.
3) Confront the ones that arent. </p>
<p>Talk to your parents, if you can. I dont know your relationship, but ask them to lighten up on the quesitions and calm down with their bragging. If you can, say why. </p>
<p>Make yourself a routine. walk around every other afternoon. Buy a bunch of lollipops and pass them out once a week. Do something that makes you feel good often, and give yourself that breathing time. </p>
<p>Find someone you know you can confide in. It can be your parents or friends or teachers or anyone, but find someone you know and just have them listen. sometimes talking through it out loud helps.</p>
<p>Finally, get a tutor or someone to help you if you can. Do what you can. And live. :)</p>