We don’t get to choose our family unfortunately. Sometimes we are put into tough situations that there really isnt anything we can do and it just sucks. You have to remember that soon you will be able to get out of the house and get away. Do what’s best for you and if your parents can’t see that you do try, then really, oh well. If you are satisfied with yourself, that’s all that matters. Every parent loves their children, and show their love in different ways. As does every child loves their parents and tries to make them proud.
I’ve been in a similar situation. I live with my grandparents and feel they expect me to be perfect and every little thing I do they act like I’m going to be sent to hell. But their children did things much worse than I would never think about doing: sneaking out, getting drunk in high school. But they catch a little bit of attitude in my voice or I don’t make my bed-I’m the worst kid EVER.
But really I wouldn’t let it bother you. Tell yourself that you will be a better parent to your children and this isn’t the end of the world. Your feelings are valid, and you will get through this and be happy.