OP you are an amazing student. You have developed discipline, self-motivation and impressive work habits. You may not have enjoyed your HS years as much as you could have…but the future is yours, and your success is not about where you “get in,” but about what you have already accomplished, and the person you have already become. Maybe now is a good time to make a commitment to yourself that you deserve more than a “living hell” – and that the mindset and positive attitude that you cultivate now, today, as you face this admissions cycle (let’s admit it, it’s awful) is what will get you through many many other difficult moments in life.
You will end up at a great school! How do I know? Because you are a student who does his/her homework…and therefore, all of the schools on your list are great. You aimed high. However this strategy necessarily has a flip side: rejection. I am sorry you have to go through this, and it does not seem “fair.” Unfortunately you will probably never know why, so if you can let go, you will find it easier to move on.
Did you apply to multiple schools? You need only one acceptance to go to college (assuming you ensured that you applied to affordable schools). You need only two acceptances to be in the enviable position of being able to make a choice. Don’t let prestige cloud your sight – no matter how great you think a school is. As others have said, YOU are the prize.
Please keep us informed as to how you are doing.