Hello everyone. There’s been an issue that has been particularly bothering me recently so I’ve decided to share it.
I’m a seventeen year old, a rising senior and someone with strong ambition and drive to excel in this world. Eventually, I long to be a public interest attorney at the Institute of Justice or another politically motivated non profit. In correspondence with this, I also long to be a public intellectual, someone who’s words and research have an impact, who can galvanize certain elements of the country, participate in public debates and so on.
To further pursue these goals I have aspired to go to an Ivy League school, most notably Princeton or Harvard. The problem that has been dragging my mood - and my will - into the gutters are the extradionarily slim odds of such prospects being birthed into reality.
I say this upon the grounds of the following:
I have a 3.5 unweighted GPA.
23 cumulative score in the ACT (the main subjects that dragged me down was science and math, I have a learning disability in math. I exceeded the English and reading sections, garnering a 28 on the English and a 33 on the reading)
My extracurriculars are lacking, although this summer I finished an internship with the District Attorneys office and have acquainted myself with them to the point where a few ADAs are willing to pen letters of reccomendation for me.
Point is, my resume is not that of the quintessential Harvard candidate.
And that’s depressing.
Yes, you could deride me for not “working hard” (although, two Cs in my freshman year in physical science and math are the only reason my GPA is as low as it is, and I busted my butt in both of those subjects)
But the point is, I have been in an environment for the past three years that is not conducive to my intellectual growth. Even many of the adults in my school do not entertain a lot of my thoughts, which is beyond frustrating for me.
Infact, I distinctly remember one of the adults I confided in imploring me to “slow down” and “take it easy” because apparently I’m “everywhere” in terms of my interests and I can be hard to follow. This is not the first time I’ve been told this, and it most likely will not be the last.
I have heard that at an Ivy League school like Harvard that has weekly visits from prominent people in the world, famous professors, intelligent students that someone like me would flourish.
I’m afraid at a state school or a smaller private university in my state I would be greeted with the same responses of anti intellectualism, pleas to “slow down” and so on.
Sigh.
Maybe my emotions emerge from a point of incessant ambition and emotional immaturity, but I long for many things in this world. I know I will be able to get them at an Ivy League school. But sadly I won’t get into one.
The school I am looking at the moment is Mercer University (for those of you who aren’t familiar, here:)
I have the grades and interest, but I can only wonder if I will be able to derive the same satisfaction that I would from an Ivy.
What do you guys think of this? Am I overreacting? Am I right to be concerned about my prospects?
Thanks for reading.