<p>Sorry if this is in the wrong place, I'm pretty new to the forum. If it needs to be moved somewhere, go ahead!</p>
<p>I'm aiming to major in wildlife biology. I know it's the right way for me to go, because animals and creatures of all sorts are my passion and have been since I was little. My only problem is that I'm really overwhelmed by the thought of how I will get over the terror I feel at the thought of dissection. I want to be able to handle it because I know it's really important for understanding how things work and I just won't succeed in my future classes if I try to opt out. I managed to squeak by in high school refusing to do the dissection labs, but I also did awful in those classes because of it.</p>
<p>I have a lot going against me. I've been vegan for most of my life now and I'm not used to even handling meat, and I'm also really squeamish in general. I can't help it, I've always been that way, but I feel like with enough determination and by approaching it with some sort of preparatory system, I can overcome it to pursue my dream.</p>
<p>I volunteer at a wildlife center so I have plenty of opportunities to be exposed to things like cutting mice open to remove organs that could hurt the resident animals, watching medical procedures, etc. I'm not too freaked out by the carcasses themselves, but when it comes to having to cut them open, even the thought makes me want to cry and vomit at the same time. I'm trying to desensitize myself by watching people prepare the mice for feeding, but a lot of times I just have to look away. At this point I know there's no way on earth I could possibly will myself to do it myself without fainting or having a panic attack or something. But I am really determined to work through this and have the right opportunity to do it and start preparing for those classes I'll get to where I'll need to be able to handle it.</p>
<p>So I'm wondering, has anybody gone through this kind of experience and found a good method for getting over it? I'm trying to set up a plan of action to take baby steps towards my goal, because just leaping into it is definitely not an option.</p>