<p>I don't know - it's so hard for me. I put emotional walls between myself and everyone, and the result is that I don't even care much for anyone anymore. And it's sad. Since most of my past friends have hard-hearted memories of me. The only ones who don't have those hard-hearted memories are the ones who always kept an emotional distance from me. </p>
<p>Sometimes, I feel like I have to put emotional walls around myself in order to focus on schoolwork. But is it really necessary?</p>
<p>I mean, okay, if someone starts to get depressed and acts somewhat dependent, then I'll actually start caring. But otherwise, it's hard to be "happy" in the happiness of someone who seems happy most of the time. I don't know why.</p>