<p>Ah, I don't know. I'm feeling more and more detached from all my friends. Maybe it's the thought of going away to college so soon that's getting me excited, maybe it's the fact that one of my sisters is abroad and the other just left for college this year and I've never been this far apart from both of them. Maybe I'm finally thoroughly bored with all my friends and want to meet new people. I don't know.</p>
<p>Another evil deed: one of my really good friends was mad at me last week. She refused to talk to me. I haven't done anything about it and now I've probably lost her forever (she still doesn't talk to her ex-best friend because they had a fight two years ago). The evil part is I don't feel bad about it at all.</p>
<p>I've lost a lot of friends because it's simply not worth it to me to fight for them. I know I am tired of my friends: my best friend is caught up with girls and religion (which would be fine if he wasn't doing it for the girls), and since I live 45 mins away from him, he doesn't bother inviting my to go hang out at a McDonalds (which as it turns out, I wouldn't go anyway). My other friend has become bipolar, and he hates me somedays and then he act like we're best buddies the next. Another is a pretentious jack*** who has to make excuses for everything he does. Still another is incredibly smart, but makes the dumbest choices and I've given up arguing. I don't like to judge... but these things wear on you...</p>
<p>Oh and a reason I can't stand it here: Recently I was working in a group in Mass Media. I forget the project, but I actually like the stuff we do in there so I was believe it or not, working on it. Some guy in my group was a freshman, and we had never really spoken before. All of the sudden he decides to tell us that he thinks all seniors are idiots and are boring. I tried to be cool about, but he kept going. He said that people always tell him that I'm funny and that I'm being really boring. That was when I realized something; when people think of me, do they think of someone who is just a funny guy? Am I put under a label? Now I know I have to get out of here to escape such limitations placed on me.</p>
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But it is damn addicting.
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If you don't have time to procrastinate, PLEASE dont visit this site (talking from experience here).</p>
<p>i once cheated on a girl with a girl i knew that she didnt like simply b/c she wouldnt talk to me (i hate the silent treatment thing)..... and i still believe she deserved it</p>
<p>Oh, I'm evil...People constantly tell me I have a "death stare" and it scares them...
Anyway, I'm in my EC's for college, I constantly mock even my friends, I'm incredibly cynical, I used to steal from the school store in elementary school religiously, I utilized a DBQ that I found on the Internet, paraphrasing parts I needed for mine, I know I'd laugh wildly if certain people I know were to die (bitter enemies), I curse at my family members, I lie to teachers, I have set fire to a certain person's membership card to a certain organization in bitterness, I have a generally horrific view of the human race, I want to be a prosecutor (and give criminals the death penalty), I think the death penalty is great, I wish the worst upon those who have won over me because of political injustice, I've spread rumors on my friends, I've told friends' secrets, I think people need to learn to keep their legs shut if they don't want children, I think horribly of those who speak with improper grammar, I think rappers should all go to h*ll, I hate my friends half the time, I constantly rant with anger...I'm very bitter...There's more, but it would probably scare you, lol...</p>