<p>Hello. </p>
<p>I am The Hairy Lemon, and I have a disease. Actually, I have a multitude of diseases. These diseases are called....</p>
<p>....*procrastination. no will to do your homework in the right times. not being ambitious enough to go and taste success...laziness.... *</p>
<p>^matter of fact intro meant to catch attention. I'm sorry, if i sounded dysfunctional to you guys.... :P</p>
<p>yea, I'm pretty sure some of us experienced this. But, this is odd. No amount of persuasion, from my parents to my counselers (school/college counselers, that is), friends, so on, can persuade me to kick that habit of, to put it in general terms, laziness. When I was in middle school, I was success driven. Got above 3.9 the whole 3 years, and generally, no problems socially....got along everyone fine. (expect for the I-like-this-person-and-i-dunno-what-to-do debacle...sorted out now.) I felt that I put in at least 90% of what I did. </p>
<p>Well, this became weird. I started to procrastinate in High School. But, courseload wasn't bad. managed a 4.1 freshmen year. Soph year: huge hit, with my very first C's in high school (resulting from H. Algebra II), getting knocked over the head by less-than-crap performances in band and tennis, unexpectadly. Procrastination became more apparent...but somehow, I managed to keep a 4.0 GPA W at the end of my soph year. </p>
<p>Junior year was when things really started, excaberated by the economic slump (hit us pretty hard), oncoming prospect of the SAT's, and taking AP Physics cuz my freind (who was one math class ahead of every other class of 2010er). Well, if I thought I got knocked over the head in my sophomore year, this one bludgeoned me with a troll stick...</p>
<p>D's both semesters in AP Physics. I lost all motivation to really do my homework, except for the fact that I musn't get any other grades below a C, and that, i discovered later, i still had a bit of hope for success. But, all the sudden, i got lazy. even with ample time, I didn't want to do my homework, even with my parents' frustration and freind's persuasion and, i dunno what not. Turns out, whatever i say to my parents (i'll do my homework, don't worry, i got this.) but, whatever i said was lies (it transpired later on, and such) and i don't know why I just didn't want to do my homework. Somehow, now i have a 3.7 W gpa, but looks like i was born into the wrong generation: the UC's are cutting spots by the thousands. It seems slim that I would get into UC Irvine or UC Santa Barbara, and I sure as hell do not want to go to UCR. Call me shortsighted, but I am gradually picking up the slack..... I dunno. I lost my mom's trust in the academics (something that has mixed feelings: I really don't care at times, but sometimes I feel guilty, other times, i just get annoyed from constant yelling and such..)</p>
<p>It's weird. With most of my freinds, their motivation to succeed is always there. WIth me, no matter how much motivation I try to muster, I can never really wake myself up to do the homework and study. Soo many times, I reflected. and found: I am lazy. I am too distracted. I must do my homework.</p>
<p>Could it all started because I did the computer too much. (no, not CC.) or, was it that i was an ignorant person? or, was it that i was worried about the troubles of having a soft spot for this one girl? or such? Or, out of rebellion, for my mom would not support what i love doin (tennis, saxophone improvement, such). Or, that my mom seems to focus entirely on me at the moment, and always "screams" that even UCR would not accept me?</p>
<p>Call me hindsighted, but I know the possiblities that can occur. Every single one. Well aware of them. I am somewhat prepared to accept Cal State or UCR/UCI, but i really want to go to either UCI or UCSB, for their location, for their education, for their programs...</p>
<p>But main question is, how do you jump start the batteries of motivation to actually study? I want to work hard, but even to this hour, I trudge at getting my summer class homework completed. (thank goodness I actually have time/motivation to complete ALL my homework...) I tried, it seemed that laziness is in my blood. (even though none of my family members possess that trait.) I feel guilty, I feel bad, I cry that I have failed myself and my parents, and worse, we face fiscal instability. (OK, not that instable, as we had already planned PLAN B 4 years ago, 2nd house and all, thank goodness. :P) </p>
<p>So, any ideas? I fear that I would not gain anything out of this thread, out of this confession. Too many times, I have lied to myself about getting work done, as it transpired. Yes, I am guilty. My laziness is beguiling. and such and such....</p>
<p>I dunno, all it takes is to do your homework, and follow through. Nobody can mend the years of the mess created by procrastination. But I die to correct it, seek a new beginning that actually occurs.</p>
<p>How to kick yourself to finish your homework on time?</p>