<p>man1959, thanks! That is exactly how I feel! That phrase is “chip on my shoulder.” I know that just being bitter and hating life isn’t going to do me any good, but it’s hard to stop being bitter and hating life when that’s what I’ve always known. Right now, I feel like my emotions are still so binary.</p>
<p>Maybe negative Nancies attract each other or something. It just feels like most of the people I see are either innately happy or kind of like me: sort of depressed because of things not in their control. And more likely than not, most of the latter ended up doing not that great, like successfully having kids before high school graduation (successfully means that girl wanted them, and they weren’t accidents) and dealing drugs and stuff.</p>
<p>I guess it’s because I’m so young and immature that I don’t see it?</p>