<p>fyi, the OP posted this in august 2007</p>
<p>You wrote that post well, with clear logical development. I don't know why you assume you can't write.</p>
<p>Perhaps you have a case of Asperger's Syndrome, which is an inability to successfully communicate with and understand other people, while possessing amazing analytical skills. It is often found in brilliant scientists and mathematicians, and they lead successful professional lives, despite weak (or non-existent) social skills.</p>
<p>Please consider emailing your counselor with your story. You are a bright person who deserves success and recognition, as well as help to understand yourself. </p>
<p>Google the New York Times- they had a very interesting and complete article on Asperger's a few years ago. All the best to you.</p>
<p>Hi!</p>
<p>I had the same problem while I was in school: I had to think hardly on what to reply, my mind was blank or full of unrelated to situation words & ideas. Sometimes, when my classmates were chatting actively, I barely could understand what they’re talking about. Even when somebody approached me with a question, I usually had to reask multiple times to understand what he was saying. This is a hard way of living. When Russian language (my native) teacher gave us task to write for example critical analysis of some novel, I could not produce anything too - no ideas - all my essays were paraphrasings of story contents.</p>
<p>And maybe it’s somewhat awkward to say this, but when I had my periods (girls’ stuff 
my condition improved magically - it was easy to chat - when they finished, gift of chatting was taken from me again. That is, maybe some hormonal-affecting medication can help ;)</p>
<p>Despite of this, I’ve been always good - not genius, but good - with math and even won a scholarship. And today, after years passed, even if I still reserved and look strange in some situations, I can state I don’t have communication/analyzing problems that could prevent me from attaining my goals, and my communication skills are even better than of some other people. So everything is changeable, do not bury yourself too early.
(and periods still causing me to become talkative :)</p>
<p>You’re the black sheep of the family?</p>
<p>I wonder why such an intelligent person as yourself would feel that way. In what way do you feel like a black sheep?</p>
<p>I’m concerned that someone in your life may be making you feel this way, because everything about your posts (this and others) suggests good communication skills, introspection, and a desire to do well. The way you describe yourself does not fit with the available evidence. You make several mentions of your parents thinking less of you because you are not getting an Ivy League education. Perhaps your parents are the problem?</p>
<p>Please do contact a counselor at your school. You should speak with someone face-to-face, someone who has seen this kind of thing before and knows how to handle it. (I’ll bet they have, and do.) But if you need reassurance from us well-meaning CC people, we’re certainly willing to provide it. :)</p>