<p>I can't wait for college, too. I used to just be sick of my limited options for friends (hey, 300/grade is small for me, ok?), but now I'm sick of my friends, too. I don't even care that I'm getting my license in a month because I won't have anyone to go to without being totally bored. I just want my sisters to come home from college because I haven't seen them in a few months and, sadly, they're much more exciting than any of my friends. I've gone through a bunch of cliques in my school and none of them work for more than a few months. And I live in suburbia, which kills me. I want to be able to go out for a walk and get lost once in a while. I take everything in my life for granted because everything is handed to me. And I hate it.</p>
<p>I've been in this district since Kingergarden. I just know everyone too well. I need to meet new people and do new things.</p>
<p>I have an established reputation that is too difficult to break, and few are open enough (including myself) to listen. The few that are I am usually scared of, mainly because I am scared of people in general. My parents don't help matters because they are restrictive and mistrusting. I don't help myself either, for I crush everything each time I begin to like someone, because I have an 85% chance of rejection. However, once my reputation is gone-which it will be in college-and my parents are out, I will at least have some choice. Social developments there in my favor may help me overcome my apprehensions and allow me to start moving somewhere in the social world besides down into a quagmire.</p>
<p>i don't have any reputation... i have no idea what others think of me. i'm not wild at all, but i still think that my parents are skeptical of my not-bad-ness.</p>
<p>at such a small school, it's really hard to find people with the same interests, especially when they go beyond the typical things like guys/makeup/etc. Only one of my friends is interested in politics beside myself, and she hates politics! She knows a lot the whole system, but prefers other subjects. at college, there's lots of different people.....I'm bound to find someone like myself eventually.
and i want to get away from the parents, too.....another "talk" turned into a 45-minute critique of my relationship with my cousin (one of my best friends). my dad has a grudge against their family.</p>
<p>Why would he have a grudge when one of the people in the family was a brother or sister? (Or is that the reason?) My family gets along very well, so well that there has never been a fight in over 100 years, at least on the father's side. The mother's side, with a great battle over island property in the works, is a far different story.</p>
<p>he loves his sister, but when they come out to visit my grandma at Christmas and during the summer, who lives 1/2 hour away, they rarely come to our house and instead invite us over there. they have a complicated thing because of severe peanut allergies in two kids; it's hard for them to go to a lot of houses that aren't nut-safe. however, i think it makes my dad feel inferior or something....i don't know.....but it's gotten into quite a quiet little grudge on his side. i like going over there better because i can see my grandma too (she can't travel over the windy road to our place anymore).
my dad does understand about the allergies, but he would still like to go on hikes with them and do other stuff that he suggests.</p>