<p>I'm a high school freshmen. I do love music, but I don't love practicing violin or piano. (In piano I am especially bored with the music...) However, as quitting music means quitting my membership in an advanced youth orchestra and in an honor program, I loose stuff that looks good to colleges, right? </p>
<p>In short: I love visual arts and I want to be an artist but I don't know if I want to stop music or take it less seriously because it will look good on colleges and I don't outright hate it. I would want to quit so I can spend more time and art and be generally happier, but I don't want to at the same time; I've been doing it for so long! </p>
<p>I'm just so conflicted because I feel obligated to do it for my parents, for college, and to sharpen a skill, but I also don't have any true passion for it. I do enjoy the youth orchestra though. (I do not enjoy the AP music theory class that I need for the honor program.)</p>
<p>My mom says quitting would I be a shame because It would waste my 'talent'...I sort of agree, given that I can play fairly well. </p>
<p>I am an artist. Visual arts is my passion, and my main reason for quitting (at least one instrument) is to have more time for what I truly love. I hope that when I improve enough, I will have so many art things to do, like online commission work, that I simply don't have time for music anymore, so I feel less guilty for quitting. (Which is not the case as of now.) Thing is, I could get to that stage more quickly if I spend more time on my art than music. I also want to be an artist, so shouldn't I put more time in that? Well, I do draw a lot more than I play music but I could use the extra time. </p>
<p>Thankfully, my grades are not a problem. I'm kind of worried for algebra II, but I did okay on the last test. </p>
<p>Perhaps I shouldn't quit; just take music less seriously? A worry is that I will ruin my relationship with my mom...I didn't win a scholarship in piano this year because I was less prepared (spending more time drawing) and she said she didn't care but she wouldn't look me in the face for days. </p>
<p>So, any advice? I'm grateful for the tiniest bit of help; this is the thing that is stressing me out the most right now...</p>