<p>I have had a long winter break - 2 weeks so far, 3 more to come.
Unlike most students, or maybe even parents, I love my break. I haven't spent too much time with friends, and have spent a lot of time at home and with my family. I have had the house to myself, and the car sometimes, and been able to relax. I have been studying for next semesters classes, and looking at internships.</p>
<p>My family is experiencing some major medical problems, and that is naturally stressing my parents out. I'm a freshman, and this past semester I have liked my school a lot, made some friends, did fine in my classes, although not without difficulty, and really like the environment I am living in. Still, the past 2 weeks have been pretty good.</p>
<p>Even though its in a while, I'm hesitant to go back to classes and internship stresses, loneliness and homesickness (new friends vs. friends I've known for years), and hearing about my family member's illnesses from afar. My mom feels like I should know and that I should be a source of support, but that's hard when I'm in the middle of my college campus by myself. </p>
<p>I'm not that far from home by any means, and could certainly visit on the weekend, but prefer not to as I focus better on campus and because I adjust better when not constantly switching between home and school.</p>
<p>My parents also pressure me to do well, but don't understand what is required to get the results that they want, or that other kids they know have achieved. I think I might also make up some of that pressure, as while my parents would be accepting if I didn't do well or wasn't happy, I don't want to add problems to their already problematic life. </p>
<p>I guess somewhere inside, I am just a little kid saying "I don't wanna go to school." And I guess I just needed to vent. But does anyone have ideas on how to change my mindset by the time school starts? Right now the little voice inside my head says "Everything right now is so nice, why would you try and change it"</p>
<p>Thank you</p>