<p>Ouch. Thanks for all the support guys. </p>
<p>Sorry if I came off as arrogant narcissistic or any of other things you people thought. I was actually being genuine here. See this is the sorta thing i would talk to my friends about because that's what they're there for but they're not much help on this issue. One's going to Harvard, the other is raging mad he's not going to Penn and the third is worse than I am on this. </p>
<p>Excuse me if i thought perhaps people on this forum would be a little understanding. This post was deadly serious and frankly I could care less what you all think of me as a person. I'm feeling a huge doubt gnawing inside me that perhaps I really am doing something that I don't deserve here. </p>
<p>And the thing is, I REALLY HAVE put in no effort. School's easy for me always has been, I'm not gonna pretend it hasn't. I compete in things and win awards without knowing how or why. I feel like I've been on one big lucky streak. I don't even go to half my classes anymore because I just don't have to.</p>
<p>I'm not here asking whether I will be able to do the work at Cornell, I know I will. I'm merely questioning a system which allows students like me to get an education at a school like Cornell, while others are not so fortunate. It just doesn't fit with my world view very well.</p>
<p>and wavebrk, I studied not a lick for the us history AP or the SAT. The 5 and 780 came because history is my second great love after the sciences. While I should be working in school I read books about history. My current one is "The Battle for Spain" by Antony Beevor. Excellent book.</p>
<p>But anyway, please don't talk as if you understand who I am or why I'm posting this. You may know people who you think I'm like, but I'm not them. Trust me, if I merely wanted an ego boost I would not need to come here. I get enough of that nonsense at school everyday. I hate it, you have no idea.</p>
<p>So seriously, this was not meant as a troll post, sorry if it came off as one, I'll be sure next time to remember that genuine concerns aren't welcome here and I should stick to asking about which dorm I should want and whether I should've gone to Michigan instead. </p>
<p>And for the record I never considered going to community college, merely commented on the fact it seems the place I deserve to be. </p>
<p>That post was longer than I had planned. Oh well. kbye. oh and thanks for those of you who actually did not assume the worst and responded with some form of truthfulness, I appreciate it.</p>