<p>Sometimes I just feel plain awful when I on CC or even in my high school.</p>
<p>Unlike the high schools CCers go to, my high school is competitive. It's not uber competitive. It's just at the normal rate a high schooler should be. We don't have any perfect 2400 or 36 SAT/ACT scorers. The kid with the most APs in 2 years is like 7 APs. Kids don't self-study APs. At my school, kids get on the school website and a pat on the back for going on People to People or NYLF over the summer. We NEVER had a TASP/MITES participant, Presidential Scholar, any of that type, or even an National AP Scholar lurking around our school. But I feel inferior. I feel extremely dumb.</p>
<p>I feel extremely nerdy, too. I sometimes feel like a hater of everything, just because I know the truth. I'm the only one in my school that thinks People to People and NYLF are just scams. I'm the only one that knows about self-studying APs. I'm the only one that ever questions the grade inflation. I'm the only one who knows about TASP, MITES, Presidential Scholar, Intel, Siemens, Scholastic, etc. even exists. I'm the only one that feels like a complete loser, because I got cut on all the sports teams I tried out for. That's because some kids in my class have been on varsity since 8th Grade, thus, having the chances of becoming a recruit in college. I'm the only kid who even knows that race is a matter in admissions. I'm the only kid who is ever so bitter.</p>
<p>"I feel extremely nerdy, too. I sometimes feel like a hater of everything, just because I know the truth. I’m the only one in my school that thinks People to People and NYLF are just scams. I’m the only one that knows about self-studying APs. I’m the only one that ever questions the grade inflation. I’m the only one who knows about TASP, MITES, Presidential Scholar, Intel, Siemens, Scholastic, etc. even exists. I’m the only one that feels like a complete loser, because I got cut on all the sports teams I tried out for. That’s because some kids in my class have been on varsity since 8th Grade, thus, having the chances of becoming a recruit in college. I’m the only kid who even knows that race is a matter in admissions. I’m the only kid who is ever so bitter. "</p>
<p>um not okay. you should be really happy that you know what’s what in this game of college admissions. the kids art your school might end up with a nasty shock when they don’t get into the college they wanted to because they are an overrepresented minority, or whatever. you are walking into this with your eyes wide open, and therefore you can prepare yuorself accordingly. Granted, there’s no exact formula to get accepted to the selectiv universities, but there sees to be a tried and (mostly) true method: great test scores, phenomenal essays, great teacher recs, and ECs that show colleges that you can commit to something and that you are a leader. just because you didnt make a sports team, you shouldnt feel like a loser; play a recreational sport; volunteer; get a part-time job; become active in your community. Just don’t let the people around you drag you down and dont let people discourage you like this. its not healthy.</p>
<p>Eh, don’t worry. Do what you love to do, and don’t worry about CCers. Plus, you are totally exaggerating the average CCer’s stats, and the average CCer’s school - if, in fact, there is an average CCer.</p>
<p>" I’m the only kid who is ever so bitter. "</p>
<p>Not a good way to be. Look, esmee, getting into a good college, while important is really not a life-focus. Just enjoy your life; secure in the fact that you are a freshman and don’t really need to worry yet. If you were a junior, I could understand your bitterness but being a bitter angry freshman? That’s just too much. Go read a book. Play a game. Go to a dance. Do something,okay; b/c being bitter for your years----not fun.</p>
<p>I know I shouldn’t be worrying, but I sometimes feel as if I have a reason to:
A.) I definitely don’t have the most rigorous courseload in my class. My courseload compared to others is probably just a little bit above average.
B.) My school is just absolutely not great for lower students. No kid who is not in the top 10% has ever scored a 2000 or higher on his SAT. Simple as that.
C.) Grade inflation. I’m definitely not a victim of it. That goes against the other honors students and I.
D.) My ECs are just simply boring. I have friends who have jobs at lawyer’s offices, on varsity sports teams, have a great artistics skills, and then there’s me… By what can I say? European culture is all I like and was ever really passionate about.
E.) At this school, I was always told that I was going to go to a “great” school, but what chance do I really have? That stats shows. Kids who were like me in the past that went to this school went to tier 2 or 3 schools.</p>
<p>I’ve tried to have fun. I still end up learning German or something. I just live a boring life. I was always told that, even when I didn’t obsess with all of this.</p>
<p>I’m also Asian, but I’m the only person in my family that even gives a crap.</p>
<p>you’re like my friend who plays age of empires,
and he can’t play online because everyone beats him,
but he can’t play people in real life because they’re always so bad</p>