<p>In high school I was primarily involved with theatre, which I excelled at, though I did well in other subjects too. The same with community college. I transferred to Roosevelt University in Chicago in August of 2008, where I am currently studying History, and also, currently on Academic Probation.</p>
<p>I am mortified. I have failed three classes since coming here, and I have absolutely no reason as to why I have. I have always had a horrible procrastination problem, but I have no problem pulling a 2-3 page paper out of my butt on its due date, or I've joked/charmed my teachers into letting me turn things in late. I have never done the required readings, but the work never focused on the readings before, so I was golden.</p>
<p>My sister (with her B.A. in Political Science and currently working on her M.A. in Sociology) and her PhD boyfriend tell me I'm just lazy, but I know I'm not! I try to do the readings, but after hours of reading, I realize that I have not retained anything that I've just spent hours reading. I go into my classes, ready to take notes, but before I know it, class is over and my notebook is covered in doodles and lyrics to songs. I've even tried putting my pen away and just focusing on the lecture, but the smallest things get me distracted and twenty minutes go by before I realize that I do not have the slightest idea what the teacher is talking about. I feel like my brain is constantly thinking up new things that just take over my entire thought structure. </p>
<p>I really am at a loss of what to do. Yesterday my best friend/roommate and I got into a huge fight where she told me that I am too loud and annoying in class with my constant, pen-cap-chewing, talking, and fidgeting. Because of this, she says that we can no longer take classes together. I've always been very energetic, happy-go-lucky, and loud, but I just chalked these up to personality traits. My friends seem to like these traits most of the time, but they always agree that I "take things too far." This appears to be the story of my life, as I have been known to offend people simply because I talk out of turn or I ask too many questions. I don't try to bug people, but I just can't seem to help it. </p>
<p>What is wrong with me? I feel like some giant, lumbering fool who is destined for failure thanks to my terrible life skills and apparently irritating personality. Is there something wrong with me or am I just a horrible person? Any help would be appreciated! Thank you!</p>