I find no motivation and its hurting me

<p>Dunno if this is the right place to post this, oh well.
Ever since the the beginning of high school, especially freshman year, I have not found any motivation to intensely study/prepare for tests or actually take the aspect of studying seriously. In freshman year, this didn't really affect me much because of the fact that most of my classes were fairly easy, and didn't really require intense studying to get good grades.</p>

<p>However I didn't excel of course, I got 4 A-s my freshman year out of 14 semesters of classes...</p>

<p>Now that it's my sophomore year, this year has hit me like a train. I did not study for any of my beginning tests and ended up bombing most of them, right now I'm standing at one B, two B+s, one A-, and 2 As. This is seriously making me feel so pathetic. I still am finding no motivation to study. I tell myself day after day that I'm not performing up to par of my real abilities; I look at my grades and see those Bs and try to imagine those grades affecting my GPA. But in the end, I find myself being too lazy or involved in something too follow through with these "motivations".</p>

<p>I'm currently doing research for Intel ISEF, and I find it sooo much more interesting than the classes I have. As such I spend hours doing that in the time I should be reviewing homework or studying for big tests, and I honestly don't know what to do. I find none of my classes interesting, and as such I'm not captivated to study or further my knowledge. I'd rather do research.</p>

<p>ON TOP of that, I have a really reckless mind per say, I make A LOT of stupid mistakes. On an easy Honors Algebra II est on Chapter 1, the average was around a 93-94, and most of my close friends got 97s. I on the other hand, got a 82. Why? Because I made 5 stupid mistakes, whether it be mixing up signs, messing up calculations, forgetting a step, etc.</p>

<p>These two problems are hurting me so much and I need to change them ASAP. Please help me out, I want to maintain a 3.9 GPA and right on this path it is not even close. </p>

<p>Maybe think of your future? Tell yourself that you’ve worked too hard to not get into (insert college here). Tell yourself that disappointment and B’s are not an option anymore, so you gotta get up and go study!</p>