<p>Hey everyone,
So here's my story.</p>
<p>I planned to go out of state when I was a HS junior but my parents quickly shot this plan down. They told me I was to stay in state. As stupid and pathetic as this was, I quickly stopped caring and trying in high school. It's even more stupid because I took off football my junior year of high school in order to focus on my studies, only to stop caring about them!</p>
<p>The reason I stopped caring is because at that point, I knew exactly which school I was going to and I knew I didn't have to try much to get in. Also, stupidly I decided I didn't want to go to John Hopkins (which is also a local school for me) because people had told me it was hard and cutthroat and just useless as an undergraduate school.</p>
<p>Fast forward to now and I am a rising junior (sort of... will explain later). I hate my current school. There are no gen eds that I am interested. Everyone I know is here for the same reason I am. Because it's cheap and a diploma mill (exaggeration of course!.. It's just that everyone here is here to get a degree and get out ASAP). THere's no football team I can try to walk on. I find it sorely lacking in student life and involvement as well. I know some people love it. But I never wanted to go here. I went because it was one of three schools I applied to. I got accepted into this school and the other one, but rejected from JHU. The other school could not award me financial aid due to a mix up.</p>
<p>Initially, I planned to transfer out ASAP. I achieved a 4.0 GPA my freshman semester (although it was over 24 credits, 12 creds a semester so I don't know if it even counts). The following summer I did a lot of research on schools I wanted to get into. I was about to apply for them, but then I secured a research internship here. However, it's a two year commitment and will not end until the end of my junior year. That is the only reason I stayed here instead of transferring out! And although my experience is wonderful, I have become so depressed and anxious. The research has been awesome but overall, school is depressing. I feel like I could be doing things that interest me, such as sports, taking courses that interest me such as film, graphics, history of the middle east, etc. but instead I'm stuck here.</p>
<p>The final blow came when they reduced my financial aid so that now I am paying half my tuition! I really want to get out but I am afraid that doing so will put me so far behind. I have between 2-3 years left here. I forgot to mention that I took off a semester due to the financial situation. It was also partially motivated (subconsciously) because I wanted to transfer and I felt that I'd be less likely to leave if I had so many semesters here. I honestly don't know what to do.</p>
<p>After I decided to stay here, I completely tarnished my 4.0 GPA. I don't feel motivated or excited about school anymore. I hate it. I just want to get out and leave. I wish I went to school I enjoyed so that in addition to my pre-med/biology stuff (which I do love!) I could become much more well-rounded and develop my talents/hobbies and participate in sports and certain organizations.</p>
<p>I just don't know what to do. Stay and maybe finish in 2 years. Or leave, and possibly have 3+ years to go.</p>
<p>Help!</p>