I Hate My School So Much I Can't Stand It

Pre-College Issues High School Life
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<p>I don't know what to do anymore. I figured since this site is full of aspiring students like myself, maybe you guys can help me out, or at least hear what I have to say.</p>

<p>This high school I'm in has thoroughly depressed me ever since I moved here. I've always felt mediocre in this school, and although this is odd to say, but this school has never felt like home to me. My old school was like a second home to me; I would stay after school for hours just to work on a club or extracurricular activity. But this school that I'm currently in...I loathe each and every day my body is in the building.</p>

<p>Now surely you want some concrete examples as to why this school depresses me. I'll start with the cutthroat, overly competitive, academically dishonest, two faced people in the majority of my graduating class. Now, I'm not making any assumptions on the academic dishonesty...I've seen it with my own eyes. People copying whole essays off of their best buddy, copying calculus homework off of each other because they were too busy watching Vampire Diaries or something, hiding a notebook underneath a desk during a test, and sneakily using a cellphone to google something during a test...yeah. The top 10% of my school is full of grrreeaat people -rolls eyes-.</p>

<p>Surely my school isn't the only one with people like these. But there are other things that really depress me. The teachers, or specifically one of the teachers, is absolutely horrible. It's like he has no empathetic bone in his body at all. I was ill with a fever one time and had to miss school (the day of his re-test), and the next day when I came after school to take the re-test he almost denied me because I'd missed the actual retest day. But I was sick! With a high fever! Yet, he still expects me to make it to school with a cold compress on my forehead! ALSO, he put a failing quiz grade in the gradebook for a quiz that I made an A on...and when I confronted him about it, he was so rude about it! ANDDD to make matters worse, almost after every single test, he compares the rest of the class to his star pupil, and had the nerve to ask her what her "secret" was! Then he asked a girl who made a D on the test what HER "secret" was, because a D was, although" could be better", it "wasn't a failing grade" -_____-. Oh my god I hate this school...</p>

<p>And DONT get me started on calculus. This class was my breaking point. The teacher makes sure you feel absolutely stupid and inferior in his class. When u ask him a question that he doesn't deem "a good question", he acts condescending and tells u to go back to Algebra 2 or pre-cal, or any other math class before his. As if that's not enough, he has very obvious favorites. More obvious than the other horrible teacher I've previously mentioned. This one girl in my class thinks she has the teacher wrapped around her finger. Whatever she says, goes. And several times, she would interrupt someone who was asking a question, and the calculus teacher would tell her not to interrupt (in a stern manner), then he would look back at her and apologize for yelling at her...that he's "sorry for what he said" -______-. GOd kill me now...</p>

<p>ALSO in this hell I call Calculus class, I would turn in homework and he would still mark it in the gradebook as a zero. And when I would ask him about it, he claims that I didn't turn in my homework at all. And then he would make it even worse and mock me in front of the whole class, waving other students' graded homework in my face saying that "Person A turned in HIS homework...oh look! Person B turned in HIS homework too!...Where's yours? I dont see it anywhere". In other circumstances, I would take it as a joke and laugh with him awkwardly, but he KNEW that I struggle in his class. And he KNEW that I worked my butt off on that one certain homework. AND he KNEW that I haven't been getting any sleep lately because I have been swamped with so much work. And I knew that HE knew that because he came up to me and said, "Gee, you're swamped with work, aren't ya?"</p>

<p>Ok...enough about my hate rant. Im so sorry if u read any of that. Im just so stressed. I've had plenty of breakdowns lately. I think Im losing hair...
Im a senior in high school, so I can't change schools. I can't get out of calculus because Im halfway through the year already...(Im taking my midterms in a few days).
Im really really struggling in calculus. I've been having breakdowns because of my stress from that class. I feel like I'm the dumbest person in that class. And this is hard on me because I usually make A's...but now Im failing. It's my senior year and I'm failing a class. Actually, scratch that...I'm failing 2 classes on my last year.</p>

<p>Nothing I do is working. No matter how long I study, no matter how much sleep/food/social life I sacrifice. Ever since I failed this one test in Calculus, my grades on all of my classes has been going down. I went from making a 90, to now failing miserably. I've tried everything. I watch calculus help videos on youtube, I ask my friends for help, I even seeked help from another math teacher who I liked more. Im thoroughly convinced that it would take me even longer than most people to retain what I learn in calculus...Maybe even a week for one chapter or something.</p>

<p>It sucks knowing that you're actually dumber than you think. It's like a punch in the gut. It sucks even more when reality hits you and you realize that you can't deal with stress very well, so you shouldn't be a doctor after all and it is time for a new career choice change. Its my absolute dream to be a doctor. I wanted to be one ever since I was little. Now, I want to be a doc b/c of the job security, the greater meaning of the job (saving ppl), and the money I would earn. And its such a stab in the heart knowing that I am not cut out to be the doctor I've always dreamed of being.</p>

<p>I dont know what to do anymore. I've cried so much, I've lost so much sleep, I try and try to study harder and harder, but I seem to be getting worse and worse. And I think ppl in my school enjoy seeing me suffer like this. It's like a form of entertainment to them. It's terrible. Idk...right now I just want to pass my tests, especially my midterms, so I can pass my classes. I dont really care about making A's now. I just want to pass for my senior year. I want to get out of this school as soon as possible.</p>

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<p>Looking back at my post, I realize I wrote a lot. I basically cried my whole life story out here. Im sorry if its TMI or anything…I was really emotional at the time. I feel ashamed and naked… O.O</p>

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<p>Wow, dude. It sounds like you have it tough. Don’t let one class get you down, though; Calculus may be difficult, but you shouldn’t let it destroy your happiness.</p>

<p>Just because you’re not dealing with stress well now doesn’t mean you shouldn’t or can’t be a doctor. Like everything else, dealing with stress effectively is something that takes practice - and if this is the first time you’ve struggled like this in a class, this means that this is probably one of the first times you’ve been really stressed out. Keep your head up and keep trying. I wish you the best of luck.</p>

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<p>Why can’t you change schools?
It’s usually possible for students who don’t live in the district to go to other nearby public schools. The only problem is a bus won’t come to your house.
(And if it’s a private school, consider switching to the public if it’s not too horrible a school.)</p>

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<p>Advice: cowboy up.</p>

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<p>Shanaynay, I am so sorry to hear that you feel so stressed. Is there anyone you can talk to that might be able to help? Parents or other family members, a teacher or counselor, someone at church, a coach, a neighbor or family friend? You need someone who can help you make a plan to improve things or at least make them tolerable. Plenty of kids find their school a poor fit or go through a rough patch. There are usually many more options than you may be able to see right now.</p>

<p>If there is no one readily available to confide in that could help you do something to make things better, then please consider if there is any way to talk to a therapist or other counselor. Not because I think you are wacko (I don’t)…but because these people can help you figure out what your options are and how to make things better. NOW, not later. Honest. </p>

<p>Please don’t bear this all by yourself. June will be here soon, but in the meantime you need someone on your side.</p>

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<p>Look over your homework. Look over your tests. Don’t necessarily study harder. But most definitely, study smarter. This is somewhat of a cliche, but it’s true. This is a kind of a generalization, but look at your past tests. Look at your past quizzes. How have they been structured? Does the teacher tend to look more for your knowledge of vocab? Is he or she more interested in application of formulas, etc.?</p>

<p>As for the teachers screwing you over, like with the calc homework, that’s bizarre.</p>

<p>Also, to cope with the suckiness of your present, look to the future. What colleges are you looking at? Have you applied to them yet? </p>

<p>There’s not too much time left until graduation. You’ll make it. You’ll have some stress. You’ll lose some sleep. But in the end, you’re “in the right” so to speak. The cheating students will be screwed in college. Your jerk teachers are probably misearable with their lives, and they’re just taking it out on you I guess? Your best times are definitely ahead of you.</p>

<p>Oh, and to the poster who said cowboy up, I hope you were joking. I have never heard more vague and stupid advice in my life. Do you understand that depression is a medical condition? </p>

<p>Oh, and OP side note: If you are depressed, get help. It happens to the best of us.</p>

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<p>Now I didn’t read that whole long-winded cry for attention, but I can say you probably have deep emotional issues and need to quit caring so much. High school is a tiny portion of your life. Enjoy it.</p>

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<p>Halcyonheather u can’t go to a public school in a different district unless you pay tuition or have a severe disability that only certain schools can accommodate.</p>

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<p>Shanaynay,
I’m sorry you are having such a frustrating time at school. It sounds like you have some valid complaints. I know it can be very hard to feel you are trapped in a situation like that. I would be sure to keep all graded work so that you can prove you turned things in if you need to again in the future.<br>
It sounds like you have tried to get additional help in calculus, but it seems like it would benefit you to get regular help, like a tutor if you can. Perhaps a local college student, or another student in a more advanced class. Maybe the other teacher you talked to can recommend someone, or even help you on a regular basis him/herself.<br>
As for dealing with the stress…for the immediate future, I’d try to talk to your parents about it if you can…find a way to get exercise to let off some steam… but as for not being able to handle the stress of your dream job, that type of stress is very different. Stress of something you are just stuck with and isn’t what you are interested in is much harder to cope with than the stress that comes with your chosen career. Then you will be doing what you love to do!</p>