Hi, I’ll try and give as much information as I can for my situation right now and what’s going on.
Note: I’m not expecting anybody to answer everything in one post. You could just target one part of it, and we can go from there. Feel free to ask any questions that might help shed light on something you’re confused about.
My Current Major:
I’m currently a Technology Management major at my university. I’m a sophomore who just completed my fall 2014 semester. From what I’ve gathered, this major deals mainly with technical skills, business skills, and people skills. My advisers claim that this major is very versatile and is great as people who have it should have a wide range of opportunities for employment. This major is supposed to be in the area of IT professionals, and this is definitely not a bad thing to me. The issue with this major is that it’s not very… developed at my university… We currently have a new, very recent coordinator who is also the only person teaching ALL of our course specific classes at the moment. I’ve talked to him a lot about this major. He told me that they’re working on getting other people to teach some courses. There’s also a professional organization that has recently formed or this major. I spoke to the coordinator of it for a good while too and got a lot of information on the history of this major. It doesn’t seem to be a really well known major… the coordinator said it himself that this degree wouldn’t have much value when we graduate and that we’d have to really explain to companies what it was and what it involves… this all is very unsettling with me. It just seems… I don’t know… lack a strong foundation? It seems like a laid back major that doesn’t even have any value. The only value it would ever get is from the reputation of university I’m attending. All the people in it seem to want an “easy way” in college and just don’t seem to be very… caring? It’s like they’re just staying in here because they just happen to land in it, not because they’re interested in it. I know a lot of people who have transferred out of it. On top of all this, the major is being housed in the College of Education. I’m so tired of so many people asking me what this major is (because they’ve never heard of it), question why it’s in the Education department, and seem to not really see to highly of it. I would love to be in IT and would have no problem with it, but it’s the foundation of this major here that really… bothers me… It’s so small, shifting, and doesn’t seem that great. I highly doubt a company would really value someone with this degree under their belt…
My Plan When I First Got Into College:
I originally wanted to be in Computer Engineering. I only signed up to be in Technology Management to buy time to transfer into Computer Engineering. Being a first generation college student, I’ve had SO MUCH trouble and issues with learning the ropes of college and have struggled so much in making decisions and adjusting. I was outgoing, but making decisions was so stressful. I was scared of the “unknown” if you know what I mean. I was afraid of making huge mistakes. I had quite a lot of scholarship money and grants helping me out, but I had to pull loans to cover the rest… this just makes things so much more stressful and is another reason why I want to do something great in college and make use of myself why I’m lucky getting these scholarships and grants. I messed up a bit and have convinced myself to stay in this major longer. I’ve hesitated a lot. I’ll get into why in a bit.
My Situation:
After talking to the coordinator and leader of that professional organization about this major, I’ve convinced myself that staying in this major and becoming part of IT in, hopefully, a big company would be a great route, but the idea of this major being so small and underdeveloped lingers with me and comes back to my thoughts constantly… My first semester of college, I took Engineering Math 1, Math 151 to prepare to transfer… but I ended up failing it and dropped it. After that, my father has been trying to convince me to not be an engineer and to stay in my current major. He’s tried so hard to convince me, but I finally told him that I want to be free to choose what I’m interested in. After a bit of toil, I’ve finally convinced him to just let me choose and not be so harsh to me about it, yet I still always get this vibe that he’s scared that I’ll utterly fail because I failed that one class… I’ve heard of people who have failed the first time, but retook it and made an A. I’ve heard that happen with several people, but now I’m just questioning if I’m even smart of enough to be an engineer… I’ve realized and learned the wrongs of my attitude during the beginning of my first semester of college. I’m just worried if I have some kind of learning deficiency. It’s not only in my school life that I feel like I have trouble learning, remembering, or understanding things, but sometimes just in life. For example, missing very common sense things that everyone else seems to know… Even the most seemingly dumb people I’ve come across knows about a lot of stuff that I don’t know. Maybe I’m the stupid one instead… In middle school and high school I’ve always tried so hard and did so well, but college is definitely different from college. College is so much harder, yet people I’ve known in high school who’ve never tried that hard in high school seem to be succeeding. I know there are so many variables and complications that play in how well someone does in college, but I’m so lost. At least I feel so lost. After my first year of college, my GPA dropped to a 2.65… not good, I know. I worked really hard this past semester and took 15 credits, 5 courses, 3 credits each. I made 4 A’s and 1 B. My cumulative GPA has gone from 2.65 to 3.1. This is why I’m thinking about changing majors soon. If I do fantastic this semester, maybe I’ll have a chance to transfer to something else. The problem is that if I change majors, I’ll need to stay in college more than 4 years and become more in debt. Instead of Computer Engineering, I’m thinking about changing to Computer Science.
Help or Advice:
I really need some college veteran type people to help me out here. I’m pretty desperate. I have no idea if I have some learning deficiency, but I’m struggling. I feel like the only reason I did well this past semester was because the courses were more about doing a bunch of assignments than book work. Half of them were really easy with easy professors. When I was studying for classes like History, Political Science, Business Math, and Calculus, I struggled, but I have no idea why. Do I lack the mental capacity? I just want to be an expert/specialist in something significant to societies and businesses. I want to make something of myself, but I’m struggling. I’ve talked to many people, but they always tell me that I need to decide for myself. I know I need to decide for myself, but they never seem to understand that I need advice for college, learning, changing majors, or anything really. This is a very stressful time for me. I’m afraid to just let my life slip away, get more in debt, and not even do anything significant or useful with my life. Any advice would be helpful… any tips would be helpful… opinions would be helpful… sharing experiences you’ve had would be helpful… I honestly need all the help I can get my hands on. Don’t hesitate for a second to ask any questions, even if you’re afraid it will come off as rude. I just need a lot of help and wouldn’t mind. I’m afraid of switching majors, not realizing that I don’t have the mental capacity for the math, then utterly failing. I honestly felt like I really underestimated the math my first semester and didn’t study enough… but is it possible that I may never get it if I kept trying and trying?