<p>OP, I just want to send a word of encouragement your way. You’ve received some excellent advice from soozievt and 2collegewego, but I’m sure some of the feedback was tough to read. I admire the mature and flexible way you’re responding. Keep working on that list and learning more about your options. You DO have lots of options, and you ARE NOT stupid. The way you are handling this need for a change in direction says a lot about how smart you are. Hang in there, and keep posting your questions.</p>