Hi everyone. I am a college student going into my sophomore year, and I have been more and more frequently questioning if I have some form of ADHD.
So to start off, as a child I was never necessarily hyper. However, I would do a lot of things that not many kids did that I am guessing may be signs of inattentive ADHD. I would be watching a cartoon, and in the middle of me being completely invested in the cartoon I would get up and go into another room and do something else. I was always very moody in an angry way, sometimes for no reason. I would stare off into space for long periods of time, completely blocking out all other noises. In the middle of class, even though I was staring directly at my teacher, I would completely miss everything they were saying. It was always hard for me to make and keep friends. My mom always used to tell me (and still does) that I have “selective hearing”, meaning I want to hear only what I want to hear… but this is really not true.
Today I still suffer from a lot of things that I did when I was younger as well. For example: the constant forgetting EVERYTHING! …keys, phone, ID, books, essays, I even forgot my school bag on the bus a couple times… (and even trying to remember what I want to type right now is a struggle…), being spoken to and completely forgetting the conversation, missing or completely forgetting about deadlines (I have to make 100 sticky notes, and a daily to-do list which really helps), and my biggest struggle school-wise was and still is reading comprehension. I am a good reader and I can read 10 pages of a book, but literally get nothing out of it… having to read the 10 pages all over again. Something that is also very frustrating that I have noticed I do a lot is that I am HORRIBLE when it comes to remembering peoples names.
However, I was never bad to the point of flunking at school, but I was never a straight A student. I always just floated by getting 75’s-85’s on my report cards, and I was also very shy when I was little so I never stood out in class. It wasn’t until my junior year of high school that I really pushed myself to doing better in school, buying a planner, investing a lot of money on sticky notes, and studying for hours on end for tests. When I took my SAT, I was completely overwhelmed. Sitting in a room trying to count how much time I had left after barely completing every section. I would sit and space out for almost 15 minutes at a time because my concentration was completely horrible… I did not score very high. Now in college my freshman year I earned a 4.0 GPA, but it was not easy at all. I realized that I would be studying (or trying to study) for 4-6 hours for one 50 question, multiple-choice test. I am also more of an organized person when I try to be as well, which is making me reconsider if I have ADHD, because a big symptom seems to look like disorganization.
I have talked to my primary doctor about possibly having ADHD 5 years ago, but she tried to dismiss it as stress. This makes me extremely nervous to even bring it up with her. Mostly because of my GPA right now, and the passing grades I have had in the past, this is where I think my doctor will disregard all of my other problems. I also think its good to note that I am a very anxious person, mostly in social situations but also regularly. My doctor did recognize this, and recommended I go to a therapist for my anxiety.