<p>Hello CCers, I'll need each and every one of you guys' suggestions/advice as to what I should for spring regarding both my class scchedule and GPA. I'll be brief but clear. </p>
<p>As an chemi engineering major, my current GPA, which is at 2.4, may look okay/fine for some, but to me, this looks like a disaster, a huge letdown, a nightmare. However, I'd say that Chem 140A & B brought major impacts to my GPA, since I resulted in C- for both. As for my past schedules, here are the following:
Fall Winter
Chem 140A: C- Chem 140B: C-
CENG 1: pass CENG 15: pass
COGS 1: C Math 20C: B-
Math 20B: B MCWP 50: C+ (I'm deeply surprised on this one; I thought I did better)
MCWP 40: B</p>
<p>Regarding both of these schedules, I won't provide an excuse as to why the grades are that way, but I'll provide my interpretation of my performance for both quarters.
Fall quarter: Finally deciding to choose Chem 140A over Chem 6AH, I had confidence and believed that having 5 classes (which is totally opposite of what ANY freshman would ever do), I could strive to pull out A/Bs just like high school. In spite of hearing the incompatibility of 1) having both MCWP 40 & CHEM 140A in one quarter with 2) having 5 classes total for one quarter, I wouldn't say that I was arrogant in a sense from both upperclassmen and my class, my mind reassured itself with the "I can the impossible possible" mindset. Unfortunately, that turned out to be wholly untrue. Throughout the quarter, I managed to put ample time into MATH 20B and MCWP 40 (by putting 3-7 hours on each draft/essay). CENG 1 was nothing to worry about. However, for COGS 1, I thought that with OK quiz grades and relatively "B-" midterms, I was doing fine for that. Unfortunately, for Chem 140A, with having Oconnor, I found that getting a mechanistic mindset of the reactions in the class was my goal to do exceptionally well, and I thought I was getting there! Until I looked at the lack of practice problems I did, along with reading the chapters in the textbook a few days before the 2 midterms, studying relatively 4-6 hours weekly (MAJORITY of it reading the text/looking at lecture notes). First midterm wasn't too bad for a freshman (B); second midterm was worse hoewever (C). By the end of fall quarter, I discovered that I was under the illusion that by valuing the textbook for Chem 140A and doing relatively fine on both midterms and the amount of problems I did, I would do OK for the final by revisiting each chapter (most time on beginning/middle chapters, little time spent on last chapters) and doing the practice final exam. Unfortunately, I saw that grade: C-. As for the other classes, CENG 1 was expected as pass, Math 20B: B, Though with math as my strong point, I expected an A-; COGS 1: C, I was surprised at this, because while I took some notes for each lecture, I found that 1) I didn't study enough for it as much as I did for math and putting enough time for it like MCWP 40, and 2) my interest in the subject swayed throughout the quarter. Finally, for MCWP 40: B, though I believed with the first paper (A-) and second paper (B-), my final paper would ultimately be an A as well, since I devoted much time into the paper. </p>
<p>For the second quarter, thoughts OF loneliness and depression haunted my mind and creeped even further into the amount of study time I set for myself. MCWP 50: Less time was put into it thanks to 1) waking up late & coming late, 2) putting significantly less time into the drafts, and 3) even forgetting to submit one of the main drafts via email. CENG 15: Turning in homework was okay, though I LITERALLY put little to no time to actually studying the material out of both the textbook and the lecture notes. MATH 20C: Online hw was easy to turn in, thought I did little to no textbook problems (though I did do some practice problems for it). Worst of all, CHEM 140B: Hoeger's syllabus listed all of the ESSENTIAL stuff everyone should focus upon, including problem sets for hw, attending all discussions for few quizzes, repeating the practice problems listed in the syllabus, etc. I felt truly stupid neglecting each and EVERY single one of those tasks. At the end of winter quarter, I look at the grades and I think, "I truly deserve all of it. How can I change? What is wrong with me? What has my life come down to? WHY AM I DOING THIS TO MYSELF when the future is in my hand?!" "Will it be the same for next quarter?"</p>
<p>Currently, spring quarter, the LAST quarter for freshman year, is soon to begin. I set myself to having a schedule like this:
Chem 140C
Chem 7L (waitlist position 6)
Mus 95G
Math 20F
HILD 7C</p>
<p>However, people have still told me it's relatively not a GPA-booster schedule for me. I need your guys suggestions as to whether it is worth taking Chem 140C. For one thing, my major is Chem engineering, though Chem140A-B are only required. However, with the thought of grad school/transfer in mind, I'm not sure whether I should still continue and take the class. Is Chemi 140C really worth taking, despite having C-s for the previous courses? Along with that comes Chem 7L as well. I've heard that it's time-comsuming, the only thing is I don't know to what degree. </p>
<p>Honestly, at this point, what do you guys advise, regarding both my horrible GPA and my spring schedule in terms of recovering my GPA? Along with that, what is your guys' suggestion regarding both my study skills for academics and my social condition (depression & loneliness)? Should I disregard my condition and focus purely on academics, being in study groups, etc?
(I apologize for the long post; the sudden shock at my grades prompted me to write this long.)</p>