<p>Honestly I don’t know what else to say now, all I do is sitting here realizing that I am not good enough to do what I want to do. I mean, my score is too low for anything, the money that I have is not enough for anything. Do I even still need to try harder?Or it is time to get back to track? I am not a TAS(Taipei American School) student, I am just a normal public high school student, so studying in the US was never in my plan until few weeks ago my American friend convinced me to give it a shot. As most students who is preparing for studying abroad usually don’t do the whole thing by themselves, but ask some organizations to help them instead, I am actually pretty proud of myself that I figured everything out by myself. And I am lucky to have you kindhearted strangers to help me out. I don’t hate studying in Taiwan, but like what I had said, Taiwan is never the best place for education(I would even say the worst) and if I have the chance to study abroad why not take a step out of my little world?
Thank you for all your advice, now what I am going to do is talk to the counselor and see how much hope I have. But at the same time I will get back to the track, forget about the whole thing and study hard like a normal Taiwanese student. I don’t want to have too much expectation now and disappoint myself in the end. I mean, hey, it’s not easy to see your dream shatters right in front of you .
Thank you guys again, although the result is not satisfying, I will not give up. See you in 4 years, America!</p>