(I’m new here. I’m sorry for getting all ranty and whiny – this is is really killing my soul right now. TL;DR at the bottom of post.)
OK, let me explain a little bit – I’m a sophomore in highschool, but my school is meant to get me out of there with both my highshool diploma and my associates. I love computers & science. However, I’m awful at math. How bad? I’m so bad that I couldn’t take the first college algebra class because I couldn’t pass the test to get in. I needed a 245 – I got 116. I retook it numerous times, and it seems like my scores never go up, no matter how much I study (in fact, sometimes my score drops). I took every pre-req class on my campus, only barely passing them each with 70-73%.
Now, here’s the big kicker. If I don’t move up in my math skills, I will either have to
A: Change my entire major, and depending on what I change it too, I won’t be able to graduate even with a highschool diploma.
B: Completely drop out/transfer schools.
I feel like it’s worth mentioning that I’m dealing with untreated depression and ADHD because my parents won’t get me the support I need and desperately want. They both interfere with my school life and my ability to learn, one way or another.
On the flipside, I’ve passed my college-level computer courses (programming, IT essentials, Linux, working on networking currently) with Bs and As, and I love them at that.
I just… don’t want to give up my dream of majoring in computer science, but every time I take that stupid math test and get the same or a lower score on it, the dream fades farther and farther away. I’m planning on withdrawing from stats because I have a 46% in it and my teacher obviously doesn’t care about my 504 plan or anything about me for that matter. I have no one to talk to about this, as my parents will just go on the “you gotta change your mindset sweaty” tangent and my counselor will just tell me to suck it up and retake the class until I get it. I just feel like I’m a broken record on repeat screeching for help but people just kinda… I don’t know… ignore it?
Anyways, that went on for longer than I thought it would, and again, I’m so sorry for being whiny. I just feel so defeated and lost at the moment. Please, any advice is welcome at this point.
TL;DR: Struggling OP wants to major in a math-intense major, but sucks at math and is currently on the verge of snapping.