<p>Big, consuming doubts. I think I chose the wrong school.</p>
<p>Basically, I was really unprepared and last minute in my college applications. I didn't visit any schools until after I was accepted (and still not even all of them) and sent my statement of intent to register on the last day possible.
I narrowed down my choices to the top public in the country, to which I've imagined myself going for as long as I can remember, and another public instate to which I got a pretty hefty scholarship.
My Pro/Con list looked like this:</p>
<p>School One
+quality academics
+good reputation
+close to home
-$$$$$$$
-area i've been all my life
-competition
-big school</p>
<p>School Two
+full ride
+somewhat smaller, more personal?
+different scene
+social
-too much of a party school?
-far from home
-less academic</p>
<p>I had never even considered the second school until after I applied...but I ended up choosing it. With the scholarship and automatic admittance to the honors program I will be getting priority enrollment in classes and greater opportunity to interact with professors as well as all my financial need met through grant/scholarship money.</p>
<p>However, after having some time to digest my decision, I'm really worried that I should have chosen the other school. I'm afraid that there won't be much of an intellectual environment at the school I did choose (it has a party school rep) and that I wont like the location, seeing as I'm a five hour drive from home as opposed to the hour or less I'd be away at the other college. </p>
<p>At first I thought the whole distance thing would be a breath of fresh air and provide me with something new and different, but now I'm just thinking that I won't fit in with the whole lifestyle of school number two.</p>
<p>It's definitely more preppy and beachy as opposed to the more urban environment of the first school. School One also has a lot more prestige than the second, which is something I thought didn't matter to me when choosing, but now I feel that it would have been nice to be able to say I'm a part of that community.</p>
<p>Choosing the higher-ranked school would have been expensive, despite in-state tuition, and put me at probably $40,000 debt in student loans as compared to the almost free-ride at the school I chose. Also, I applied undeclared to both and haven't yet picked a major, so I figured that School Two would be a better place to figure this out and not waste money. But I'm wondering if maybe I weighed finances too much in my decision. I mean, happiness and the whole experience should come first, right?</p>
<p>I'm not even sure if I would be happy at school two, but I know that it has a more academic environment. I don't want to be stuck somewhere for four years that doesn't challenge and inspire me mentally and that's what I'm feeling right now. I don't want another four years of high school. I had fun, but I'm over it. I want peers who want to learn and be educated. Am I being too critical? I need help.</p>