<p>I go to a small private school where all the social greek life are local groups. My sorority is the oldest on campus, but also the smallest and least popular. I'm a sophomore this year and I'm one of the most active members in my sorority. I decided to rush on a whim last year because I didn't have any friends and I was told this was a great way to meet people. I ended up only going to my sorority's formal rush (none of the other six groups wanted me) and ultimately got a bid from them. I was super excited. When I first met my sisters I really thought that I had found my place. Pledging was great--we have a lot of really cool traditions and the exchanges with the frats were super fun. After pledging, all of the sororities and fraternities pair up and have a week of parties, and it was to my displeasure to find out that my sorority did not have a party week. I could feel right away that we didn't really belong with the rest of Greek life. In fact, there was a sorority that formed a few years ago based on the fact that enough girls didn't want to be in my sorority but only got bids from us so they formed a new group that is already way more popular than us. </p>
<p>At first I could put our lack of social life past me, since the bonds of my sisters are more important than anything. But as time went on, I learned that they're really unmotivated and unwilling to do anything. I ended up being the chair for our large fundraiser and for rush as a new member, and working with my sisters is utter hell. I hate going to meetings because everyone is annoying--we don't get along because we're all basically just the group of leftover people who didn't get bids anywhere else. I'm trying so hard to recruit people into my sorority, but we have no presence on campus because we don't have many parties, and my sisters are fine with this. I'm betting that this current pledge class will be around 4 or 5 girls while the other sororities have 20-30 pledges. Sometimes I really just want to deactivate my sorority since it causes me so many problems and I've actually gotten sorority-based anxiety but at the same time I don't want to lose the few friendships I have and I feel as if I leave then the whole sorority will eventually fall apart since nobody takes any initiative to do anything. It's super frustrating doing all the hard work that comes with Greek Life but not being able to do any of the fun stuff that the other groups get to do. </p>