So far I’m in my second week of college at Temple and I’m absolutely hating it. My main problem is struggling to make friends, as I grew up in the same township all my life and just had friends from there. I know everyone is going to tell me to give it time or join clubs (which I already have), but I still have this paranoia that I won’t be able to. I see all my friends having a great time while I’m doing nothing. I actually look forward to Sundays and classes so I don’t feel as bad that I stay in.
I want to transfer to Penn State Main and I don’t even know why I chose Temple to begin with. My sister and more of my high school friends go there but I only chose Temple because I was given a full tuition scholarship and I’m in the Fox Honors Program. I didn’t get any aid from Penn State only because I was unaware I had to fill out FAFSA which I thought was only for financial need, but apparently you needed to fill it out to get merit. I feel like I’d have a better time at Penn State, but then again I could go through all the trouble to transfer and still not enjoy it.
During my first two weeks at campus I just feel like I’m missing something. I know everyone down the hall but that’s about it. I try to go out and enjoy some parties off campus but I just don’t have fun at them. But I’d rather attempt to go out and do that than stay in my dorm. And I’m not helping myself by looking at the rankings and seeing how Temple is so low and watching all my friends who went to Penn State have fun.
I’m sorry for me spewing out like an emotional mess but hopefully with time it will get better. I just want to make some friends that I can have fun with and not be so god damn depressed.