@ucbalumnus
I gave your question quite a bit of thought when I was walking the dog!
Of course, I don’t know how everything would have turned out if we had sent her to our local public HS or a different private HS in the area. We made the best decision we could at the time, with what we knew and the resources we could scrape together.
Yes, I suspect her desire to go to an elite private and her lack of grasping & accepting our financial position had something to do with the atmoshere at her private HS.
On the other hand, it seems to me that this narrative runs deep in our culture, no matter what kind of high school. Work hard, take rigorous courses, get great grades, great tests scores, check off your ECs…and you will be one of The Chosen Ones in the Admissions Rat Race. Who talks about affordability?
But yes, being at a private with mostly affluent families might skew the narrative even further, regarding what is considered a good school and what is considered a bad school, with big jumps and assumptions about how good or bad your life will then (be guaranteed to) turn out.
For example, she would not even consider visiting ASU on fly-out invite, because, in her mind, ASU is not a good school. That sort of thinking is no doubt a product of the school’s atmosphere and the woven narrative.
She also told us that it was hard for her because she sensed adults (GC, teachers, parents) were disappointed upon hearing where she’d be going. There was this lingering, “Poor girl. You could do so much better.” She’s no dummy. She knows if she was naming a Top 20 instead, there’d be confetti and fireworks shooting out of their butts, right?
I know we broke one of the Golden CC Rules by allowing her to apply to a top school we could not afford without selling a kidney. There was a lot of heart ache, and anger directed my way. It might be easy to conclude that was a big mistake, but then again, she will always know she was “good enough” and was accepted; the only thing that kept her from going was lack of money (& our unwilliness to take out insane loans).
The other thing about being a mere mortal in a school filled with affluent families, is that she had the opportunity to see that no matter how much or little money you have, you’re human, and there will be good things about your life and bad things about your life.
When she went on her Kairos retreat, she listened to classmates open up about a whole range of problems and realized that even those classmates who seemed to “have everything” and were “perfect” had, well, struggles and problems and some were quite serious.
So, in the end, I’d say we took the good with the bad. She was well-prepared for college-level work at her HS. Maybe she wouldn’t have gotten that free ride scholarship if she had attended elsewhere? I’ll never know.