independent study idea need help!

ok so i’m going into sophomore year this year but last year i didn’t have all that good of grades because my mom was diagnosed with cancer and it really messed me up ! i had no energy for anything… i lost all of my friends gpa was so low! so as i’m going into the new year i’m getting depressed all over again and struggling with going to school each day but i really want to go to college but then again i want to just go on independent study just to better myself then i’ll go back but i don’t want that to ruin my chances for getting into college. so should i do it or not?