<p>I think you're making things much harder for yourself by trying to self-teach. If you are serious about music, you need to start hustling. Find a real live piano teacher. You need the feedback - not jsut weekly feedback on your piano lessons, but general feedback on your natural talents, abilities, and goals. </p>
<p>I have no idea how Internet piano lessons work. I'm guessing you need a keyboard that plugs into the computer, so something can give you feedback about whether your notes are correct or your rhythm is correct. The best program in the world won't tell you if your fingering is correct. Fingering is extremely important in scales. You have to make the correct fingering become a habit so that it transfers to Beethoven eventually. You don't want to learn it wrong or you'll be fighting it forever. And unless you are extremely self-motivated, it is hard to keep with it.</p>
<p>I am a piano teacher. Every year I start new students, and generally it is the teens or the adults who are blown away by how much work it is. They truly thought a 'few lessons" or even a year would be enough to make them pianists. They come to a lesson convinced they've mastered the material after a week, and are dismayed to find out they've used the wrong fingerings and their rhythms are way off and they're missing all the little nuances such as accents or dynamics. If they make those mistakes, having live feedback once a week, I really don't see how the computer could handle it.</p>
<p>I have to admit I have grave doubts about your immeditate future as a musician. Obviously I don't know you and cannot evaluate your talent or drive. Your resume doesn't show any deep commitment or ability at this point. I'm sorry if that sounds harsh; I would never tell anyone not to go after their dreams, and I won't say that to you, either. I'd love for you to come back next year and tell me how wrong I am.</p>
<p>I just feel like you have an unrealistic idea of what a music major requires.</p>
<p>There is a tendency for folks to assume Christian organizations are less picky or deserve less ability. That isn't true, but comes about because the pay scale tends to be lower, so sometimes they have to take what they can find. Most Christian musicians I know (I know a lot) are classically trained, and working other music jobs as well as church jobs. You can find less-able musicians in some smaller churches, but usually as volunteers. The competition for paying jobs is intense.</p>
<p>Church musicians have to have good voices and a knowledge of different types of Christian music. They almost always have keyboard skills. I attend a church with over 3000 people, and a "rock band" worship team. The leader is on staff full time, as well as being a travelling performing artist. He is classically trained on piano, but mainly plays guitar and sings when leading. The rest of the worship band - vocalist (or two), keyboardist, guitarist, bassist, and percussionist - are volunteers who rotate. They have to audition for this unpaid position - that's how stiff the competition is.</p>
<p>Rather than discourage you completely, I'd suggest you look for some back doors. Apply at your dream school with a different major. Then get into some of the music courses on a trial basis to see if you can handle the work and develop the skills you need.</p>
<p>A smaller church, or even missions field, would be very interested in someone with a degree in Bible, or Christian Ed, or whatever, who also came with music skills.</p>