<p>WARNING: I'm about to go into a rant about my frustrations and personal attributes regarding my potential as an engineer, if you want my bottom line questions then just skip to the starred paragraph.</p>
<p>I am currently an upperclassman in highschool. My entire life, I have been considered extremely gifted in the world of creative writing and literature. Words have always come naturally to me, and I learn the best when presented with visual and interactive material. Right now, where others may find things difficult I'm breezing through my AP literature class, it's like a free A basically, and I'm not saying all of this to try and sound braggy but just to establish where my strengths are.</p>
<p>Now, I decided to opt for as many AP/Honors classes as possible so all of my core classes are equally rigorous, but math is just not my strong suite. It's never been my strong suite. I'm currently in the 80s in my Pre-Calc class(straight As or high Bs in the rest), and I'm that person whose usually the last to finish tests and understand concepts without a lot of practice, and it just makes me kinda sad. Math has always been my most frustrating subject.(A side note, I enrolled in Honors Chem this year and I actually have a high A, which is weird as science also does not come super easily to me. I kinda enjoy chemistry though)</p>
<p>I want to have a job that contributes something huge to our society, I'd love to be the kind of person that leaves a legacy. Of course, it's been proven many times in history that words are a powerful thing, but we're living in a society where those who prove to be great at mathematics and science strive way more academically and are given far more merit. I stumbled across a site called EngineerGirl, and it made me realize that engineering fits my dream job description nearly perfectly. I've been kind of obsessing over engineering quite honestly, doing a lot of research(in the form of Youtube videos and a few articles) on the quality of life that one has as an engineer and how much self-fulfillment it produces. Since everyone is different, the results were, of course, equally as mixed.</p>
<p>However, I haven't been able to find any accounts from anyone like me interested in this field. </p>
<p>****** I guess the point of all of this rambling is, how would a creative/visual girl that has to work a little harder in math do in engineering? Which branch of engineering would allow me to express my creativity the most? If I got into this field, how would I be treated as a girl, especially one who might have to look to her classmates often for help(Would I be scorned and trambled over in this field)? Is there a big chance I'll get shoved in a stuffy office where I'll slowly slip into a sea of depression and self-loathing?
To those who are engineers, are women in your field often harassed or ostracized?(I'm not as concerned about this, and trust me, I'm used to being a minority but just out of curiosity). Chemical engineering sounds pretty interesting, but of course it turns out it's one of, if not the hardest, branch of engineering. So why is this so and is it true? What to do chemical engineers do? Do you like the branch of engineering you choose? Why or why not? How easy is it to switch between the various branches? Which branch seems the most stressed out all of the time? Do you have time for relationships/a social life? Are you able to invent things and see the awesome satisfaction of robots that you built walking around and doing things? Does immense knowledge in math and science make you feel like a superhero since you understand how the world works and can figure out ways to manipulate it?</p>
<p>Finally, based on what I've said, if you honestly don't think engineering is the right fit for someone of my description, what is a job where I can express myself creatively, have job stability and a good salary, and feel like I'm contributing majorly to society?</p>
<p>p.s. I really don't ever want to end up as a teacher. Also, when I intially looked into engineering, money didn't even cross my mind although it is an enormous plus.</p>