So many wise words here from people who truly GET IT. That is one of the reasons these boards are so helpful. Don’t mean to sound dramatic when I say it, but it’s often just too complicated/frustrating trying to talk about this with other parents. It’s a whole different world!
To clarify a few details… yes, my D has a very good relationship with her teacher. A trusted mentor and advisor. Issues in the past with another student leaving and things getting complicated had more to do with the other student’s parent and the way the transition was handled. I could still imagine the possibility of hurt feelings, but I don’t feel like we are there quite yet. Will be seeking out trial lessons and other opinions this year–without overdoing it. We are 60-90 min.+ from other top options, but I could see this as an occasional thing we do. She definitely has a sense of wanting to be challenged in music settings–of not always wanting to come in as the best in the group, so that’s helpful (and realistic!).
From watching my D at the end-of-camp-recital, I would never have known she was anything less than thrilled and confident about her experience. I think it was a reality check, and the intensity and time-limited nature of camp was the most overwhelming part. I think it was like cramming auditions and the first week of college all into one. No way to fully prepare for that, and I would actually have been surprised if she HADN’T felt overwhelmed. Just glad she’s talking about it, and hope the conversation continues. For what it’s worth, she seems to be a ‘teachable’ student, and to handle criticism well (i.e. is usually able to ‘roll with it’, and find something useful to implement)
For my part, I have decided to continue researching music schools (I look at it as a temporary, necessary obsession), but to talk about it less with her for now. I fear I may have been overwhelming her with the many useful tidbits of information gleaned from these pages. (Stay in your lane, mom! She’s got this…)
I can absolutely see what others are saying about motivators. Much of her life in HS has revolved around those external motivators. It IS pretty awesome to achieve those goals, win that seat, earn praise from teachers, etc., but I can also see the wisdom in shifting the focus to the creative process, working collaboratively, the great feeling she gets from playing well in settings she enjoys… I’m thankfully seeing that internal motivation creep back in. She’s had some great practice sessions in recent days.
I do think that another part of her concern is the time and money that has been invested in this pursuit…expensive overhaul of her instrument, camps, lessons, etc. I know she worries about letting everyone else (and herself) down. What if, after all of this time, expense, specialization (at the occasional expense of academics and other interests), etc. it isn’t enough? Fortunately, I think these feelings are lessening–at least for the time being. My ‘helpful’ suggestion that it didn’t matter, that we just want her to do what she loves and finds fulfilling wasn’t met with much enthusiasm. I guess sometimes the thing you love/hate/stress about, etc. is one and the same! I do like the idea of working with a sports psychology type person. I think there is a surprising amount of crossover in these performance type fields.
Finally, so true what others have said about ‘paying no attention to the sounds coming from behind those doors’! Just last night D was playing in a community concert. All ages, good players, but a fairly low-key community group none the less. There was a kid in the row behind my D who was doing some pretty impressive warming up. He looked to be about D’s age, but I’d never seen him before and knew nothing about him. I’m not proud to say, I almost lost my mind thinking, “Seriously?!? Who is this kid? Do I actually know nothing about this instrument? Is EVERYONE good at playing it?!?” Turns out he was all-state, all-east, etc. in HS, and is headed to Peabody in the fall. :)) Talk about a reality check moment! Stay cool, mom, stay cool! =))