<p>So I know it's a few weeks in the semester now, but I guess it's gotten to a point where I can't really ignore it any more. </p>
<p>I took a Spanish placement test at my school and got placed into a heritage learners course. Sure, I've been exposed to the language for most my life, but I've heavily relied on formal courses over the years for help on actually speaking and writing in the language. Also took the AP Spanish test, where I received a 4. I got to the university where the department head told me I needed to be placed into an even higher class because of the AP credit. </p>
<p>At first I thought I might be able to handle it, despite my initial protests, however after the third essay I've written and had completely dismantled and corrected, I'm wondering if maybe I really am not prepared for such a class. I also feel incredibly intimidated by the ease of fluidity exhibited by the other students, one which I really can't hope to match, which is in turn hurting my participation grade. </p>
<p>I understand that university classes are on an entirely different level from high school classes, yet I feel really under-prepared in comparison to my fellow classmates who exhibit a level so far above my own. I find myself dreading the class constantly and now feeling a bit depressed, considering the obvious disparity in ability. </p>
<p>By this point it's not possible nor feasible to drop the class, and I'm wondering what I should do with the hand I've been dealt here. I find language to be much more difficult to steadily improve as opposed to something more concrete, like math or science, so I'm at a bit of a loss. =/</p>