<p>hey everyone.. i really dont know why im typing here.. i guess it's just a way for me to sort things out..</p>
<p>when i was in high school, i really didnt care about school (grades... ) and focused on just learning.. and i was happy.. when i graduated, everyone around me was disappointed and then thats when i started to feel hungry for it (it, being "success") and stuff and just focusing on numbers and i just started to change my view..</p>
<p>i mean, my figures from high school arent that bad.. 3.85 gpa, tennis varsity captain, but my SAT was 1840.. science club vice president.. anyway, i was satisfied but my parents were so disappointed.. i got into a decent college..</p>
<p>from the first day from freshman year, all i wanted was to transfer out so i did my best in everything and i took every step hoping it would lead me to the best schools... </p>
<p>i got 3.6 cumulative gpa in college, im a sophomore now and ive been very active in school, been close to the dean and been one of the acknowledged leaders in my school.. </p>
<p>ive sent in all my applications and i know my chances ar eextremely slim.. but idk.. where do i go from here? it just seems so pointless.</p>