Okay so I recently got back my world politics midterm and I got a 65/100, I thought I did better but no big deal, I have 10 ec points so that’ll make it a 75 and will be getting an extra 25 ec points for doing model UN so that should bump it back to a 100. I even scheduled a meet with my prof and will be meeting him tomorrow. Now in I’am also in arabic class, the teacher said we had a quiz so I studied a little bit because I prioritized all my studying for world politics and she expailnd the quiz like it was going to be verbal but it was written and turned out to be the midterm so I’am pretty sure I got a D or F in that. Lastly I skipped one math class to catch up on my sleep and when I came in to math next day, wham! a 90 point test (theres only 164 points in the class so far and I had 165) I was not prepared for this test at all and left alot blank. I feel like I got a 10/90 on it and I felt so bad I just wanted to go on my college’s roof and jump off. I asked the prof if she could give me a retake, she said I’ll be fine but the highest I can get in that class with 100s is an 82%. The only class I’am actually still doing good in is English with a 93%. I wanted to get straight A’s this semester and try to apply to U of Chicago for transfer with a 4 in 2 years but now I’ll have at least 1 B this semester and at most get a 3.9 if i get 4s the rest of the years. I know I’am an idiot, I wish I could go back and beat the **** out of my self. I failed my goal and I feel tired now, sorry if this seems like a rant or cry for attention I wish it was but I had something and I lost it because I’am a failure. So now what? can I try to get in with a 3.9 in U of C because their transfer rate is 2.2%. I just cant believe I had 3 as now they’re all total **** all because of me, without going to a good college I cant even land the job I want. I was thinking about begging my math teacher to give me another chance but realized she wont give me it because I dont deserve it.
Don’t put all your self worth into your grades and the remote dream of transferring to a top 5 school. I literally can’t think of one job that could only be obtained by going to UChicago.
Don’t skip any more classes. Pay attention to the syllabus and make sure you know all the test dates. You can salvage reasonable grades.
I always wanted to work for the United Nations and their competition is really tough, U of C is the best option other than Harvard and Yale. its reachable unlike Harvard and Yale but I screwed it up, spending late nights studying until 3 AM it really hurts when you’re under the illusion that if you work hard you’ll do good and then invest time just to find out that you’re just not smart enough or gifted. Ever since I was young I’ve always struggled to pay attention and do problems other kids have done in seconds but in college I set my standards high and because of my incompetence I messed up. I honestly dont want pity but rather someone to kick the **** out of me if you can understand.
No way do just those 3 colleges feed the majority of UN jobs. Too many students convince themselves that only a tiny number of schools can get them to their preferred job. Read this, it might help you with some ideas of what they are looking for.