<p>21Questions,</p>
<p>Today was graduation day at my university, which always puts me in a reflective mood. So please pardon me if my answer to your question is a bit more, well, reflective, than you expected or desired.</p>
<p>It is absolutely normal to feel the way you do. As an undergraduate, you are only able to skim the surface of many of your academic interests. But an undergraduate education is <em>supposed</em> to have both breadth and depth -- breadth in terms of exposure to many disciplines, and their ways of approaching problems, and depth in terms of beginning to learn increasingly more about ways problems are articulated and approached in a specific discipline (your major). </p>
<p>Graduate school is about beginning to specialize, to MASTER a body of knowledge in a particular area of study, and to begin to develop familiarity and then facility with various theories and methods in that specific field. </p>
<p>One's interest can become so specific and deep that it brings one to embark upon DOCTORAL level study, in which one is expected (at least in the humanities and social sciences) to not only demonstrate mastery of the discipline in a COMPREHENSIVE way (qualifying exams), but also to develop and define one's own original contribution to a subfield of that discipline.</p>
<p>Because a career in academia follows this trajectory, one is <em>always</em> discovering how much more there is to learn. It is often said that the more you learn, the more you realize how much you do not know. So if you are feeling "inadequate and undeveloped," it is because, well, you are. And you always will be. In a sense.</p>
<p>One's job as a graduate student is to <em>begin</em> to plumb the depths of one's specialization. Although it culminates in a dissertation, in which one demonstrates how much one knows within (and how one has decided to contribute to) a particular subfield of specialization, after the dissertation, exploration never stops. Realizations keep surfacing that one knows but little about another, even closely related, area. </p>
<p>The minute these realizations of your lack of knowledge stop, you are finished as a scholar. The minute you think you've mastered everything is the minute you've lost perspective entirely. The very condition of being a scholar is a consciousness of how much you've yet to learn. Your job as a graduate student is to learn who can teach you some of this. Your job as a graduate student is to learn how much you can learn even from those you think <em>cannot</em> teach you. The constant lesson is humility. The constant struggle is awareness that you are <em>still learning</em>, and have chosen this way of life. </p>
<p>Every single one of your professors, even the Nobel or Pulitzer or Bancroft or Whatever prizewinners, knows that every single contribution he or she makes will inevitably be questioned, deconstructed, and hopefully, improved upon. </p>
<p>There is no gap to be bridged. Just a continuum to travel upon, humbly. Should you be afraid? Yes, very. Should you let this fear stop you? Never.</p>