I understand that feeling you’re describing (where you can sense a divide you can’t seem to bridge), and I’ll just echo that you probably need to give it more time. It takes some people more time than others to find their place in various social groups, and right now, everything is so confusing and fluid (for everyone). It sounds like you’re putting in solid effort, which is great…you owe it to yourself to do so. I’m sure you’ll meet a few people you really sync with, and that will make a big difference. Stick with it! I promise others are feeling the same.