<p>OP, I didn’t recommend counseling just because you may have dealt with depression. I suggested it because your goals are incompatible with your actions, you may lack discipline and follow-through and you have developed some bad habits that I think can be hard to kick. I really think you could use some help and strategies to help you move forward. What you don’t want is to go to a college and bomb. Lots of people do. I really think your best options are looking for a supportive environment. Oh, there was a longtime poster here who was very fond of Rollins College in Florida where her high test score/low gap son did well after bombing at his first college.</p>