<p>Ok you guys might say that with that gpa you are not even qualified so just kiss your dream good by, but I actually had a good excuse that I am thinking to write about it. Can you guys judge whether the reason behind is good? Thank You.</p>
<p>Freshman:3.27 (IB)
Sophomore: 3.7 (IB)
Junior: Its not finalized but I might get around 3.76 range unweighted and 4.12 weighted. (AP)</p>
<p>The reason behind my low for first freshman, sophomore and junior year is because of the family issue and loneliness that continues to bother me even until today. I currently attend an international school in Japan. I enrolled to the school at the beginning of freshman year. The school I attended was IB. The reason why I got so low on my freshman year is because of the big family issue and fear of my father. Before coming back to Japan, our family decided to visit Oregon as a trip. However, during the trip my parents fought really badly over my academic incompetency. So even though our trip was supposed to be for like 2 weeks, it ended just in a week. They said that they are going to divorce and divide. I have a brother that I love and separating with him would be more than a scar. I was afraid. Because of this fight, we did not went back to Japan as altogether but I went back to Japan with my mother. My brother came two days after with my father. For around 4 month the family atmosphere was like dark. </p>
<p>Since I attended an international school, my father always emphasized that the school cost a lot and if I don't get good grades he will be really mad. I was under sever pressure. I was afraid because 6 month before came back to Japan, my father decided to teach me after school. He made me translate around 20 pages of textbook a day and even on the weekends. Whenever I made a mistake he screamed and yelled at me saying "you little piece of ## you can't even translate this?" I could not understand how he did not allow even mistakes. Everyday I was forced to come back to school and could not hang out with my friend at all. He did not even let attend church. Since my mother was in Japan during those span of 6 month, I did not had anybody to talk to. During the 6 month with my father, I attempted suicide, but it did not work. Even during our trip he made me study. Also in school, I did not had many friends. I was so lonely and I did not had anyone to rely on. I had like 2 friends, but they were always busy. So in order to make friends, I did dumb things such as throwing myself on the wall to get attention and rolling on the stairs. People laughed but I was glad that I was able to get attention. </p>
<p>Now in Japan International school, during my freshman year I tried my best, but due to my fathers fear and pressure and loneliness, I could not overcome the burden and failed. Same thing applied during the sophomore year accept that I had many friends. I had people that I could rely on and talk to. So I worked hard and earned honors roll, but I was still under the fear of my father. During the start of sophomore year, I started to take tutoring. My father told me that "you are taking tutoring because of you incompetency". Everybody in my school had tutoring and I could not understand why I couldn't. Also I once got a B in one my pre-cal test and my father sighed and said that "a B? are you serious? You are a failure, your life is ruined, just forget about it and go to community college and get a mediocre job, you have no future!" I was very frustrated and whenever I take the pre-cal test, my hand was shaking literally with fear.
However, I was still happy since I was with friend, but my father suddenly decided to move to another international school. I don't understand how could he decide so easily. It was like less than a month before the end of school. </p>
<p>Now in new AP school, I took 3 AP courses and one honors . For this school, I moved to another place and left my house that I considered as a family behind. With new environment and new school, I tried to have a good start. However, my family fought the day we moved in. Also this school was different. Since I was preparing for IB and suddenly changed to AP, I had hard time adjusting to the new system. However, this was not the only problem, but I also had friendship issue as well. I tried to join the new community, but I failed. I could not join my new schools community. I was lonely again. I tried my best to become friends with them as much as possible, but I they formed an invisible barrier against me. So the only friends that I could make was from sophomore, but only 3. During this year, I was loaded with family issue, academic issue and friendship issue. I tried to make friends, but they labeled me as idiots and just pushed me away. I was so sad that I was forced to leave my friends in my previous school so that I have suffer here. Now today I just had my last day of school party, but I was not able to participate in any of the party.
Also due to the stress my mother had from my father, she started to express her stress on me as well. During this year, my started his first high school year and he did not do too well. So I helped him and took responsibility for some of his work......</p>
<p>Throughout my experience, I went through hardship and I tried to overcome. I become stronger and matured as a result of the suffering , but I believe that the cost was too sever.
I learned that when I become a father later in my life, I should never treat my child like that and I should strive to become a father that values his child's freedom of choice. Also I learned that life comes no matter what and only option you have is to become stronger.</p>
<p>With this experience, I have one aim: to change this harsh reality so that nobody have to suffer anymore. I know how painful it is to be lonely and don't have anybody to talk to. </p>
<p>People might ask why Ivy league? To be specific, I want to get into harvard. That was my dream since grade 8. I want to get into harvard because I believe that harvard can provide me with great opportunity to make dream into reality and help me be successful in life. </p>
<p>Im sorry for the long post, but it would be grateful for any comment or critique. Thank You</p>