<p>I'm experiencing this extreme agony over writing appeals. Yes, it is that painful, much more painful than the moment I received the denial decision. I know appeals never work, so I have no idea why I'm applying. I could take a gap year as orginally planned, but a gap year seems to parallel risk. It's either going to be another battle lost or...I don't know. I don't even know if I can end this year with mostly A's. Why am I so weak at handling multiple things? </p>
<p>Any parents willing to read it? I just want to know whether it's convincing and heartfelt enough. </p>
<p>Or suggestions? </p>
<p>Yea I know appeals are no use. Why wasting my time? My hope is way too up there. Big dreamer am I.</p>