<p>Hey, how can i find out if im retarded or really smart? i feel really smart on the inside but i dont know if this is true or just a complex illusion that i have subconciously created for myself so i don't feel bad. when im by myself i can think to myself clearly for example, how i type on the computer would replicate how i converse to myself in my own mind. but when im at school i have trouble expressing myself about things i give limited information and i always feel that the person on the other end of the conversation either misunderstood me or did not become fully aware that i actually knew what they exactly what they were talking about. i often feel that the other person is trying to establish dominace over me through conversation by somehow belittling what i say. also i feel that when i am in class i have little to no Wit, if someone was to mention something to me then i won't fully analyze what they said or ment untill i have alone time to contemplate it. this is a disadvantage because we often have discussion based classes in which i sit i only listen which dosen't give a good debate . i tryed to come up with something today but before i raised my hand i started slipping, i had something that i really wanted to say, to speak my mind and it was something that i found of interest and that i could in a sense "teach" the teacher (it would have been appropriate because of the discussion course) and i found my idea blanking out in my mind peace by piece, take this for example, its like creating a film or a movie in your mind, but suddenly piece of it go blank. if i come up with a great idea i almost have to write it down as i think it or i will lose it for perhaps a long time. </p>
<p>i am not sure if im a moron or not or a retard or a genius or whatever. but i do know that i am very different then everyone else. people laugh at things i do that i do not consider funny. people hav refered to me as insensitive but i feel pretty sensitive? i had a college teacher one time actually tell me jokingly that i was "what they call in idiot savant" yea thanks alot. how could this be? now i feel like a smart man in an idiots body. teachers i also notice communicate subtle messages in there teaching by other methods and also by indirect suggestion. i have far to many examples to prove this but im not going to go into detail. </p>
<p>so i think i might ether be A. retarded
B. a genius and everyone else is retarded
C. reached some higher level of thinking that avereage people cannot comprehend.</p>
<p>actually i just thought of this and this isnt the first time i thought of it, i think i might be pyschic. not palm reading occult magic yadda yadda psychic, not prophet or oracle greek play whatever psychic. but psychic in its etymolgiy however you spell that meaning. for example</p>
<p>Here is day to day average human thought, everyonce in a while my awareness will rise up to a extreme level. </p>
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<p>but the strange thing is, is very often someone elses level will meet me there. and i think. omg did this just happen, its like our souls just breifly commuicated. and i think over and over, is the the other person aware of what just happened? a normal person would dismiss this as a coincidence saying that i am in self delusion yadda yadda but what happens if these coincidences happen hundreds of times? couldnt one then suspect this to be a theory or hypothisis? one could argue this stating that hey its like flipping a coin you could statistically get heads 100/100 times but its still always a 50 50 chance heads or tails. but were not talking about coins here, were talking about communication, do peoples souls communicate? </p>
<p>I dont know these things</p>
<p>Nothing like this was ever revealed to me in any philosophy class? </p>
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<p>What is your input on this?</p>
<p>oh well maby im just demon possesed...</p>