<p>Do you ever feel like your life is stuck in a rut and you're going nowhere? I don't know but have been feeling kinda depressed lately. I am a second semester senior and I have been accepted to two colleges already. But there are things in my life which are just lacking. I've moved around a lot so I never had a group of friends with whom I "hung out" or did things with on the weekends. I do have friends who I talk to during school but it is mostly on superficial level like school, grades etc but I can't seem to engage in "small talk" like gossiping, sports, video games and where the parties will be on the weekend. It just seems that I missed out on a lot of things that high schoolers do. Because I came to the school in my junior year, a lot of the friendships were already there and it was hard to make friends or break into their cliques. Basically, after moving so many times to different places (right now I am living overseas), I feel that I've matured faster than other people and feel sometimes I take myself too seriously.
Also it makes it harder, when you know that the girl you like already has a boyfriend and you just can't get over her. I've liked this girl since I came here but things didn't work out and she stopped talking to me and I just couldn't get over her. I've tried to avoid seeing her in school as it makes me feel hurt but my feelings can't be bottled up. I see all these couples on valentine's day and it makes me feel more hurtful.
Even my dad's position in his job is unstable right now. So if he gets laid off, I will not be able to go to college and will most likely attend community college.</p>
<p>Basically, I really feel miserable right now and that I am worthless.</p>
<p>hey boomer01, this is EXACTLY how i feel right now.</p>
<p>I am also a second semester senior who has experienced this painful epiphany. I have always been serious about school and I too have been accepted into two colleges. LOL, we were prolly separated at birth.</p>
<p>I also feel something lacking in my life after all these years. I feel like I took school way too seriously and missed out on the social part of HS. Usually, when I talk to people, it's just about school, and only now am I trying to engage in more "small talk".</p>
<p>You know what's funny boomer01, that there is also a girl that I like, except she's my friend's GF. I'm not trying to break them up or anything, but there is a definite sense of loss and isolation, that I don't really have anyone special in my life right now. It's this epiphany that good grades canot replace love and friendship that is painful.</p>
<p>yeah, Valentine's Day was pretty uneventful for me too. It's frustrating to see how everyone else has someone. </p>
<p>My best advice is to just try and make some friends. There's no other way. Start with people in your class and see which ones share the most common interests with you and talk to me. People are usually not as mean as they seem. I really don't know what else to say since I'm experiencing the same feelings, but please, the best thing u can do is to try to be active with others and not contemplate about how worthless u are, cause ur not and that gets u no where. It all comes down to not taking urself seriously, something that I'm trying to work on too. And also, help others. It's amazing the sense of purpose u get when u make someone else happy.</p>
<p>WOW....thats almost EXACTLY what im going through...except im going to college, a good one, but i dont feel like i really got what i would have liked out of HS...and the girl situation, same thing...she doesnt have a boyfriend but isnt interested in me, at all...other girls are but i became obsessed w/ her and dont care for other girls at all...only her...so its hard,,,really hard,....it just takes time but it does go away. I also moved schools after 11th and find it extremely hard to make new friends when everyone knows eachother but college is different,,everyones on the same level and needs to make new friends and adjust....i can totally relate to what your going through...keep posting</p>
<p>I feel just like you... I moved around too and matured very quickly. When I got to HS it was all about work, grades, ECs, jobs, etc but no social life. I have my friends and am popular by association but I don't think I'm like "them". I was homecoming queen last year yet ironically didn't go to the dance... too hard studying for my college class... pathetic, isn't it? Now, with college just over the horizon, I'm kind of depressed... like I've missed on on something. I'm all cheery smiles during school with my friends but when I get home I can't do anything but worry myself about my future. </p>
<p>Word. Everyone needs to cut the worrying down. Especially about things they've already done, that are in the past. I was talking to some girl today and made the point that tomorrow we have an AP US test, she'll study for 3 hours, I'll study for half an hour, we'll do equally well, and I'll outlive her by 30 years.</p>
<p>Think how fortunate you are to actually have a place to sleep, be clothed, and get to eat everyday. I know, it doesn't sound like much, but our problems sometimes seem so petty when we really think about the real problems going on in the world today.</p>
<p>This will sound corny but I don't care because it's true.</p>
<p>Just do what makes you feel good in life; it's too short and easily taken away. My father passed away recently and it was very anticlimactic. When was his well-deserved fun going to come?</p>
<p>It's your life, have fun with it, enjoy what you have, do what you love doing.</p>
<ol>
<li>I'll live and be passionate and be alive</li>
<li>You will let me do all this, and be healthy</li>
<li>I'll die at age 60 in a quick and brutal death</li>
<li>You give me death, not deterioration. </li>
</ol>
<p>There's company in misery. Or something like that.</p>
<p>Anyway, that's how I used to feel till the very beginning of this year. Then I said, **** that, I'm doing things my way. And lo and behold, things are great. You can read over my other thread for advice.</p>
<p>Dudes I felt the EXACT SAME as all of you. I had one best friend (still my best friend b/c we're at the same college) from Junior year (b/c I went to a Catholic school until freshman year of high school) but he made new friends and he and all of my other "friends" got caught up in drinking and (at the time) I wasn't into that and am still glad I didn't drink in HS. I felt lonely and isolated. I had movie nights on Friday with my PARENTS. I was miserable. I knew that college would be better and was just waiting for my chance to break out. Now I'm at college. I am a extemely social person (all my friends joke about me knowing everyone) and have many close friends. I finally feel liked and appeciated and wanted. I do stuff on weekends (not this last tho I had chem lab haha). I love college so much and I knew that I was just stagnated in my awful, hick farmtown.</p>
<p>So my advice. Get involved with a new hobby. I started working out and lifting my senior year (when I could, b/c I forced myself to join the musical and got a whole new set of people that I would have never talked to before as friends). I joined musical and devoted myself totally to academics. If none of those are for you just do something for yourself. Get a job and start saving money, apply for scholarships, watch some interesting movies. Anything I could do to take my mind off my lack of friends, I did it and just wait for next year. That is the best thing to do b/c if you build it up and catastrophize it will overwhelm you. Don't let things get to you b/c everything will just get better. HS will never ever matter in the future. That's the best part.</p>
<p>dude, dude, dude, boomer, i feel the exact same way... the thing is, for me that my parents are a big roadblock in my social life. like, i dunno why, it might be the whole arranged marriage world they grew up in (in india), but whatever the reason, they get really strict when it comes to girls. like, i dunno if yall have girls choice dances wherever yall live but ive been asked to a few of them and my paretns havent let me go... ive also never been to a normal dance either... but im not necessarily just talking about dances or girls, im saying my social life in general is way lacking. its like, i work my butt off now so i can relax later in life, but really it is only so i can work my butt off later in life too, a never ending cycle of depressing work and no social life, ugh</p>
<p>You're parents aren't following you to college. Whatever you want to do, you do. Whatever you want to tell them, you tell them. As much work as you'll do, don't worry you will have a social life if you want one. (I tell my parents everything b/c I can, and they like that. Even if they don't like what I'm doing all of the time they are supportive. They would rather be told stuff and not yell at me then have me not tell them stuff. They are nosy like that haha.)</p>