<p>Hi guys, this is my first ever post and I have to give fair warning that it will be quite a handful. I'm going to be pouring my heart out to CC so please no nasty ad hominem attacks, I already beat myself up enough as it is.
First off, I know that I am severely depressed. I've finally scheduled a counseling appointment for next week. My family has only just realized how troubled I've really been. I've contemplated suicide, not real seriously, but I've entertained the notion. I'm a junior majoring in accounting and I absolutely hate it. Even more so I hate the business school classes that come with it. My GPA is tanking, I hardly attend stats, finance or accounting anymore, and when I do I doze off and take nothing from lecture. Today I filled out half of my accounting exam before turning it in, partly because I didn't study and partly because I just don't care anymore. I'm 3 years into my education and I feel that I've hardly learned anything, and I've taken very few classes 300 level or higher. So, if I change my major now, I'll be further behind still. At least my dad has given me permission to change my major, I just don't know what to do. If I could go back I would do pre-Pharmacy, math, or biology/chemistry. I want to contribute something to the real world and I feel like accounting is just a soul-crushing future. Sure the pay is good, but I know I wouldn't make it in the corporate world.
Also, I have financial troubles that keep me from living in my own place. I currently live with my mom and commute to campus. I still have no real friends and have never had a girlfriend. I am so lonely I can hardly stand it anymore. I'm so envious of everyone on campus with awesome social lives, romantic lives and actually enjoy what they're studying and have a purpose. I feel like I've always lived my life the way other people think I should, and the full dullness of it all has finally hit me. Most days I want to just drop everything and run away. I've wasted 3 years here and am still lost. If there's anyone out there who has felt the way I do and gotten better I'd love to hear from you. Thanks</p>
<p>What do you wanna do in life? I know you said you wanna contribute something to the real world, who doesn’t, but what does that entail for you? I’ve always been big into law enforcement. I considered majoring in criminal justice actually. But I spoke to some police officers and they recommended something else, especially certain business majors as well as science or engineering. Their reasoning being that you can still be a cop with those degrees, but you can also get into the FBI with those degrees (especially accounting actually!) and you also have something to fall back on if law enforcement doesn’t work out (it doesn’t for a lot of people).</p>
<p>So I decided to major in information systems which is a business discipline. I enjoy working with computers and it’s not as hardcore as computer science/engineering. I also added logistics as a double major because everyone I know who has majored in it loves it, and from what I’ve read it’s interesting.</p>
<p>So what you need to do is figure out what it is you wanna do. I wanna do law enforcement because I wanna do something for the community/nation and I also like the structure of the job. What you can also look into is if your school offers some sort of medical leave of absence. Take a semester off. Get your priorities straight and figure out what you really wanna be doing in life. That’s what I had to do and it’s ended up working out so far.</p>
<p>I don’t have many friends either. I have a girlfriend but we text a lot and don’t see each other everyday. Don’t pressure yourself too much. I know a lot of people that are old and want to go back studying. Don’t worry about falling behind. Ask yourself: what do you want to do in life? What can you imagine yourself doing? Don’t think about what you are interested in…think about what you are passionate about. What do you like doing everyday? Pursue your passion even if it’s something weird and go for it. Turn your passion into a successful career. There’s lots of people who turned weird degrees into very successful paychecks 
Find something you love, meet some professors, gain some connections, look at job ads, and just do it step by step. Don’t put too much stress on yourself. Trust me…we all make mistakes but hey, we’re all human. Making mistakes and “wasting time” is what makes us better and stronger in fulfilling a productive life.</p>
<p>I’m going through the same thing as the OP. Finally scheduled counseling today even though this semester is going to be a lost cause. I guess just focus on getting through the last few weeks of this semester and doing some serious self-work over the summer. There’s no good answer.</p>