I’m really worried about this and I don’t know why. I’m only a junior; I know that I’ve got some time left to decide. But it feels like I DON’T. I go to a super competitive school and everyone seems to know what they want to do with their lives, and I’m just left behind.
I have interests — that’s not the issue. I love science and English and all things music and theatre and I’d love to work in a career where I can help people. But making a career out of the arts isn’t an option for me. When it comes to English my passion is creative writing and I doubt that I can sustain myself with that. This leaves just science. I don’t want to try pre-med because the idea of eight years in school is just crazy to me, and I’m not totally interested in lab research — not sure why, but that life isn’t for me.
Engineering and computer science is not my passion, but chances are I’ll end up there anyways. And I’m worried that I’ll just be miserable. I’m surrounded by so many people in engineering/CS who just hate their jobs because they had no other options and I don’t want to end up like them. I’ve been lucky enough to have parents who will let me major in what I wanted (granted that the job opportunities are stable) and I don’t want to take that for granted.
I’m not really sure if I’m asking for major ideas or reassurances or whatever. But I just feel so unhappy whenever I think about my future and it’s making me sick. I can’t even look in the future and imagine myself in five years because I have no idea where I’m going. I feel so lonely; everyone arounds me knows what they want while I’m just stuck. I don’t know what to do.